this book is about Katie mead, daughter of Beth Mead and Viviane Miedema.
Katie is a girl who is struggling with herself and has diabetes. even though she has diabetes she plays professional football for Arsenal women.
school today was hard, I have to go to the Netherlands in 4 weeks or something because I have some tests I have to make. I love to see my friends again but I don't like the travelling and missing out on training and possibly a match.
I went out to the pitches and grabbed a ball before everyone else came out. did some warm-ups and did some dribbling. 2 hours went by and i'm a bit shaky, I wanted to grab my water bottle but before I could reach it I felt really dizzy and fainted. 5 minutes past by, and Stina was going to do some shooting exercices until she saw me laying on the ground. she picked me up and sprinted to the changing rooms where some girls were. noelle was already calling viv and beth while lia was helping me as she knew what to do. lia grabbed my pump and checked, 2,9 shit. she also checked my heart rate 177. lia grabbed my glucagon injection, viv arrived in the meantime so lia gave the glucagon to viv and viv injected it. after a minute I woke up but they already brought me to the doctor rooms. which isn't necessary at all. as I feel fine now.
international window was coming and I was going to stay with Beth and the lionesses, most of the girls don't know that I have diabetes. only the arsenal girls and Keira, Georgia and Lucy because I'm close to them. everyone will treat me different when they know I have diabetes and I hate it. I'm not playing for an international team but I hope I will soon.
during international window I FaceTime with mam a lot, mam is away with the dutch national team. she has 2 friendlies, 1 against Scotland and the other against england. Mam doesn't like the new head coach Mark Parsons, she doesn't think that they have a chance on winning the euros. after I called with viv, I went to dinner and saw my besties for the first time in a while. I ran to them and hugged them hard. hey kei how are you? hey miniiii g interrupted g let her breath. Lucy said thanks Luce love you. after we had chat for a while they had a meeting and I didn't feel like it so decided to go to my room. but after their meeting Leah called me to let me know that Sarina wanted to talk to me. I didn't know why and I was stressing. what if I had done something and had to leave? as I arrived I knocked on the door and she let me in. hey Katie hey sarina you wanted to see me? yes, how do you think about playing for England?I think you are a really good player with a lot of talent. and that you're a really good addition to the team. I don't know what to say, of course I would love to. but did you talked with mum and mam about it? yes and they don't mind, and i don't think your diabetes has a negative influence in your game. it wouldn't be a problem. thank you, thank you, thank you no problem, I would love to see you train this window already if you don't mind? and maybe with the matches? ofcourse, i don't mind.
guys you're never going to believe this. what? keira asked i'm sort of called up, sarina thinks I have a lot of talent and want me to train with you and maybe matches! congratulations girl, you deserve it so much -kei, g, lucy, leah
⚠️TW sh⚠️ as the first game was coming up, I put a lot of pressure on myself. my body is doing great, I don't faint that often anymore and I really feel good. but mentally i'm destroying myself. sarina wants me in the squad which i'm happy about but i'm missing my arsenal girls. I'm alone in my room at the moment, and im crying myself to sleep for the last few days. I found my razor and did something really bad, I cut myself until I see blood. it feels so good but it hurts so bad. shit shit shit I have to cover it up, we have dinner in 10. i wore a black long sleeve with a hoodie so i'm sure nobody can see it. on my way to dinner Beth saw me and we walked together and hugged, I actually love her hugs so much.
today is the match against belgium and i'm looking forward to it. starting line up against belgium
Mary Earps
Lucy Bronze
Leah Williamson
Millie Bright
Katie Mead
Georgia stanway
fran Kirby
Keira walsh
Beth mead
Rachel daly
Lauren hemp
i'm in the starting line-up because sarina wants to test me and we don't really have another leftback as they were always struggling to find one. i'm sharing the pitch with people I love the most. we're now heading to the changing rooms after we did field inspections. most girls are wearing just regular t-shirt but i'm wearing long sleeves under it to cover up my scars. i'm changing the shirts in the bathroom to take no risks. my warm-up partner for today is lucy because she can make me comfortable. i'm stressing a lot and I have a lot of nerves but I need to push that away. as the game was starting we didn't play good but we were growing into the game, around the 28h minute we created a lot of chances. we got a corner in the 30rd minute and millie headed it in. 1-0. half time still 1-0 we are creating a lot of chances but we don't finish them. second half starts and i'm told by sarina that she is planning on subbing me out around the 75th minute. as i'm running with
the ball at my feet I see rach in front of the goal so I sent the ball and she finishes it perfect. the game ended 3-1, happy about the win but we could've get more out of it.
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