"You were alone, left out in the cold
Clinging to the ruin of your broken home
Too lost and hurting to carry your load
We all need someone to hold"
they're all laughing together, his friends and boyfriend inside their own room
leaving him all alone outside their living room, sitting in the chair, by himself thinking why is he even here?
once again, he thought this feeling will never come back or he'll experience it again cause he already had a boyfriend, jungkook
who he loves, and loves him.
but then why he felt this feeling again? was he weird? are the others don't like him being together with them? was he that bad? does he really this such treatment? cause he knows inside his heart he's a good person, he always make sure to include everyone who felt left out, he doesn't understand, why does he felt he doesn't belong here and there? everywhere.
he wants to cry, but he's an expert on how to hold back tears in years of practicing and experiencing it all alone
he pulled out his phone and scroll, scroll and scroll he just wanna distract himself
he wants to join them, laugh with them but what's holding him back is whenever he'll enter or try to join them, his friends and boyfriend would shut their mouths and will eye him, making him worst, and the ground to swallow him, the awkward silence is killing
until that incident he doesn't include himself to bond together with them, he just let them be
cause he knows, in the end
he only got himself, only him and no one else
was there even left for him? everyone doesn't care about him, they always make him feel left out
that's why he decided to disappear forever after a month and decided not to show up forever in his own family, friend's, and boyfriend jungkook
he changed everything about him, so everyone would not be able to find him, why would they even bother to find him right? such a delusional
he travelled around the world and enjoying everything all by himself, learning how to love himself more
cause he knows no one would stay in this life, he was meant to be alone after all
when the world and people decided to be cruel to him, he tried to fight it but he can't he gotta get away and leave everything, for him to get what he wants, peace
once again, his all alone but not this time he was alone and happy with who he was and what he become
the peace he seek is finally here, the storm inside his heart has calmed
