[ July 02 ]
It's a Sundaaayyyyy~
And Sunday is a lakwatsa day! Of course, after ko pa magsimba kasi nga diba mabait ako, like super duper ultra mega mabait lalo na kapag na sa loob ako ng simbahan hehehe. Tapos paglabas ko, balik naman sa pagiging demonyita. LOL.
Anyway, it's 7 in the morning and I'm currently nagbibihis para magsimba, then going somewhere where ever my feet brings me.
"Ate, let's go na. Ang bagal mo kahit kailan!" dinig kong sigaw ng kapatid ko mula sa baba kaya napangiwi ako at binilisan na ang ginagawa. That brother of mine will leave me if hindi pa ako magmadali. He's so evil sometimes!
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After the mass, I went to a near café para tumambay dahil bored ako. My friends are busy and no other people that I want to talk to are free. So here I am, alone and in misery.
Charot.
Actually, nauna na kasing umuwi yung kapatid ko kasi may pupuntahan pa raw siya, while I stayed kasi nagki-crave ako ng something sa café.
After ordering something to drink and eat, I open facebook to check if may something new ba na ganap, which I expect na meron kasi ganyan talaga kapag laking chismosa ka, right?
Una kong pinindot yung notifications and I saw na maraming nag-react sa post kong medyo nakakatawa naman siguro?
I was so damn bored yesterday kasi I did not left the house for a reason na naubos na ang kayamanan ko. Pity.
Money, rain down heavily on me!
Anyway, this is what I posted:
"Anong magandang dating app?"
There were lots of reacts and a few comments. I don't really expect people to answer seriously, but kind of glad that someone did commented properly.
And the comment said:
"There is Grindr for gays, and Her for bi and lesbians."
I know Grindr, but not Her, so I got curious and agad na nagpunta sa playstore to try downloading it.
I check pa muna if the app is good or nah before I proceeded.
Nang tuluyan nang ma install, I did some registering and whatever it is, and then I came across this thing where it says that I have to post atleast a few pictures of myself so people can see what I look like, and I was like, "whaaaaAaaAaaatt?? Can't I just be mysterious?!"
I wasn't aware that we have to put our pictures when joining a dating app. I SWEAR, I AM NO SCAM, WHY DO I NEED TO PUT MY PICTURES? TT_TT
And then I realized that if want mong may pumatol sayo, then hala! Be free to put as many pictures of yourself as you want, and para na rin hindi nila isipin na shongit ka talaga kaya hindi ka naglalagay ng pictures mo, pero keber, I deleted the app. HAHAHAHAHA
The app didn't even last for 30 minutes on my phone and I immediately deleted it.
It's not because I feel insecure or something whatever. Na-realize ko lang bigla na hindi pa pala ako ready sa commitment HAHAHA.
And so, ayun, I decided na wag nalang mag dating app. Let fate do their work. Ayokong i-push sarili ko sa ayaw sakin— ay weh?
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PS; Actually, it's Cupid's job to find someone suitable for me. And besides, I'm already fine being alone. I've got friends who spoils me kasi baby nila ako *evil laugh* so, what do I need a partner for? Aksaya lang sa pera. Sus!
Sincerely, Hara "nasa gaslighting era" Fontalon
