I'm too insecure.
So thats what they tell me. I know they are right. My hatred towards my self is so pure. Its not my fault all the words I'm called get to me, or the fact I believe them. I've been called all of the classices "Hey Stupid" "Fat A--" and then some, But also some more painful "Cutter" "Emo" "Suicidal B--ch" and the list continues. I may not be so insecure I may not hide as much if it weren't for the countless days of people who said "I'd never leave I'm always by your side no matter what" but left first chance they got telling me things like "No one wants you so why don't you go kill yourself already its not like anyone here will miss you". Maybe I wouldn't be so hard on myself if my dad had stayed or if my mom hadn't said "Emo cutting B--ch no one cares" or "I should've had a abortion when I had the chance" or that time when she said "why don't you cut a little deeper next time". But yes, all of this insecurity and hatred towards myself is just in my head..its my choice. I tried to stop. Can't you see! I'm only like this because I've heard it all so many times by countless people and I can't help but to believe its true. No one else seems to say otherwise. So it must be true. I've tried to believe otherwise. One things for sure There is no cure for the pain that is so pure.
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Im sorry.
RandomThis is just me writing down my feelings and thoughts. Just a warning I think too much and I make a lot of Punctuation and spelling errors and I apologize in advance. I dedicate this to anyone and everyone who has gone through or is going through th...
