Why won't you love me

Emily Naur

Thurs, 28st july

Hello everyone, my name is Emily and I am not like the other girls, in fact im not even a girl. Other girls have "physical form" and "are human". Lol imagin uwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu.

I have a bababoi named bob. Hes so bababoy material and i like him cuz he treats me like one of the boys uwu. Teehee yeah u heard me right. Unlike the other girls, i actually PLAY VIDEO GAMES??1!! OMG SO SHOCKING RIGHT UWUW like, i dont go out partying, or putting on makeup, like i just stay at home and eat pizza and play fortnite 14/7...

Anywho, today, i saw a guy named joe who came up to me and he was a total giga wigga chad. Like literally JACKED OUT BUFF, SHREDDED, RIPPED. Tbh hes like kinda better than my current bf..? Idk tho...WHAT AM I GONNA DOOOO?!I CAN'T CHEAT ON BOB, I'M NOT ,LIKE , MY FATHER!!! I'M A BADDIE, NOT A SADDIE!!! 😖 im BAD to the BONE, ROTTEN to the CORE, metaphorically and physically , i dont drink milk, got that calcium deficiency.

Fri, 29th july

Hey, so today, joe talked to me again during science class!!!11! EEEEEE!!! Wait- why am i so excited to see joe?? .-. Teehee maybe its because hes so ripped and so hot how could he compete with bob? I MEAN- i love bb and would never cheat on him but joe...?? MMMMMMMM SCRUMDIDILDY YUM YUM, he's just so >>>>>> like I don't think joe with like me though...but it's okay! Wait why am I even thinking about dating Joe :0000 but joe do got me kicking my feet, got me jumping like boom shakalaka and giggling tho. maybe it's....l-love..??????? (btw i said this w/ an astetic kawaii smirk on my face 😏)

Today, my mom also got so mad at me for naur reason too?? Like im so confused, with her AND this whole joe thing. Today has been legit so weird, like i also saw a kid yelling: WHY WONT YOU ADOPT ME???! And a guy yelling back: I AINT GON SAY IT then he repeats the ques again. "ITS BECAUSE UR BLAC-". In a tesco carpark, so idk what that was about lol XD .

Sun, 30nd july

I curled up in my bed like a confused roblox e kitten, i couldent stop thinking about whether i liked JOE or BOB! Anyways i couldent let that distract me from trying to sleep... s-so... I got up and started FORNITE GAMING CUZ I AINT LIKE OTHER GIRLS. -_-

Oop ;-;, someones calling me... i better answer...

Oh, my bf, bob, is asking me out on a date: "hey bebeh gurl, i was wandering if u wanted to spend som time with daddy-" w-w-w-w–w-welll... i wanted too but something just felt wrong... as i dreamt about joe while i tucking my fluffy fuzzy groomed galaxy gacha furry tail to bed.i just had to decline him, cuz it just felt too wrong... Should i break things with bob? Or is it too early for me to tell if these are my true feelings towards joe...whenever i see him, i think: why wont you love me?