Why won't you love me

Emily yaur

Mon, 31rd

OMG GUESS WHAT!!!!!!! J-JOE CONFESSED TO MEEEEEEEEEEEE I WAS FLABBERGASTED, DUMFOUNDED, AGHAST, BAMBOOZELED, APPALLED, BEWILDERED, ASTONISHED??!! MY JAWS DROPPED SO HARD IT SAID HI TO THE TITANIC SUBMARINE HE WAS LIKE: hey bebeh gurl... wanna sway over for dinner tonigtr?? HE GOT THAT IMPECCABLE RIZZ!!!1!!! As his HEAVY...MUSCULAR...broud shoulders towerd over me, I was blushing so hard I looked liked a volcano about to erupt !!!! I was about to reject him BUT I WAS LOOKING BACK TO MY FEELINGS TOWARDS HIM AND SHAT MAH PANTZ, I FOUND OUT I LOVED HIM A LOT!! MORE THAN BOB???? I COULDN'T REJECT NauR COULD I ACCEPT...' whatever shall I do..." I thought.....

This feels so wrong... but why does it feel so good...?

I didn't know ture and poore lurve felt like this.....

I just need someone to help me.. Nobody understands my pain i'm going through... im in my emo era...... Idk why everyone avoids me.. Maybe its just because im different from them.. 'They. dont. Understand. my . pain. they...just....dont..understand...my...PAIN!' I repeated in my head as i walked in slow motion flipping my luxurious fully conditioned wavy hair.

Mon, 32th

I did it. I went on the date with joe... i just couldnt stand his infinite rizz as it was crushing me like a giant lego brick! And i gotta admit...it... was... AWESOME!! JOE IS AMAZING!! AND RICH??!! He got me the most expensive thing there!! But.. ik this means im cheating on bob.. So im gonna do it today.

I'm gonna break up with bob.

I feel so bad for him.. I don't deserve him....So i got to do this TODAY. See ya later, diary. Gotta go to class now.. Updates on the break up later..

Guys..i did it. im littertry crying rn... bob was so mad at me...but this is for the better. I cant keep lying to him.. I cant keep lying to MYSELF.

I gotta stop writing, because ters are filling up my eyes so much that i cant see anymore.