Dangerous cravings

❀fourteen

I sat infront of him inside a  luxury coffee shop downtown, I didn't even know this place existed.

He sat across from me slowly drinking his coffee, taking his time. I was shuddering after yesterday's event, I couldn't sit calmly.

I didn't know what he was capable of anymore.

"Here" he hands me an envelope telling me to open inside, I do as he says and open it. Inside there's a bunch of papers "what's this?"

"A contract"

A contract? What the hell were we going to need that for, it was only a fake dating scheme, I wasn't going to run away or something. Just how paranoid is he?

"What do we need it for?" I ask him, putting back strands of my hair "I need to know what you're into, bondage, humiliation, sharing, anal, I need to know everything before I start doing anything with you, rossa"

My mouth opens as I sit there listening to him list all the things he wanted to do to me, bondage....anal.... what was his fucking problem..I thought it was going to be just plain sex but what the hell is he suggesting?

"You want to back out?" He asks me "no, of course not" I clear my throat "but do we have to do all this?" He nods "I find pleasure in it" I gulp at his answer "you're a sadist"

"Well, isn't my little toy such a smart girl" he sarcastically comments making me roll my eyes at him "roll your eyes at me and I swear to fuck I'll give you a good damn reason for you do so"

Why is he like this?

"Sorry" I apologize to him, he takes a sip of his coffee looking outside "I want to look at first before signing it" he nods agreeing with me.

After a few minutes of complete silence I decide to talk "what is so good about having sex the way you do?" His gaze darts to me almost immediately "it's how most people do it, wasn't your boyfriend like that?"

I shake my head as no, he groans "he didn't fuck you good and he cheated, just what the hell did you see in him?" I'm caught off guard by his question.

He can't understand.

He won't understand.

"This is done right, can I get going I have things to do" he informs me standing up already "oh, okay" he fakes a smile before walking off leaving me alone in the coffee shop.

I started to read the contract, one page after another, the more I read the more I need coffee, this man is completely insane..this isn't even BDSM it's alot more than that.

Even christian grey would be Wilded out by the shit that's written in this damn paper. I sigh. Am I really going to get fucked like this just because of my reputation?

Yes...yes I am...it matters more than anything to me right now, a few fucks won't kill me...I hope my future husband understands me.

I get up from my seat taking my crutches and walk outside carrying the contract in my hands. I had to get home for some rest....I had an exam I needed to study for and other things to do.

I sit at the bus stand waiting for the city bus to come, I feel the soft wind brush my skin creating goosebumps on me...if my dad was still here, maybe I wouldn't have to be doing this shit.

Maybe if she didn't leave us............

Maybe if he didn't abandon me, that damn liar....if he only came back for me....if only he thought of me and tried to reach out.

I sigh wiping the little tears that had started to fall from my eyes with a hankie.

There's no use crying over something so trivial...I need to live my life and not look back. I can't dwell on the past, what's done is done...he left me and he's not coming back...he chose his path.....she chose her path too.

The bus arrives at the stand point and I get up getting inside it, after swiping my card on the paying machine. I head to take a sit at the back of the car.

I open the window looking outside.

You got this Gabriela Colton, you got this girl.