YinYang self 🥀

1.Everything seems off 🥀

Running from the chaos that is buried inside me which threatens to rise up!
Trying to silence off all the negativity that makes me wrong person in everyone's eyes.
Finding the peace within that is set on fire and is lost in me .
I feel lost and everything seems off!
There is a battle going on inside me, between me and me which I do not choose to lose either!
Being able to smile from inside needs me to go through the state of extreme vulnerability.
Which horrifies me because, once I have already gone through the path and won it.
Will I ever be able to calm down this storm inside me ?
Will I be ever able to accept my vulnerabilities, weaknesses, flaws and shape them to be beautiful and lovely ?
For I don't like to be in this state of how much everything seems off to begin with.