Friends or more

A new beginning

Thinking about Joon's words July once again put her other sim back into her phone and switched it on. Immediately pop up from missed calls and messengers showed up. She scrolled through her messenger until she was at her first one

Youngbae:
Where are you? I woke up and you weren't home.

Youngbae:
I just got back from work and you are still not here? Why aren't you picking up your phone?

Youngbae:
I'm getting worried. You didn't come home the whole day. Please pick up you phone or call me back

July continue scrolled through the text messengers.

Youngbae:
It has been a week. I finally realized that you really left me. Are you even throwing away our friendship?

When she was at her last text message her heart truly broke.

Youngbae:
Even after a month I don't feel like giving up on us, or at least our friendship. But I have to move on. I can't be sad forever, especially not while I'm a public figure. But I don't want to end things like this. Can we meet up? To just end things good. I'll be waiting for your call.

The text messengers and missed calls were both 50+. With shaking hands July looked for Taeyang's number in her contact list. Her hands were shaking terrible. Pressing the call button she put her phone against her ear. It wasn't for long when someone picked up. "If it isn't the short girl" someone that wasn't Taeyang said. "Who.." July asked but hears him yelling on the other line. "Youngbae, your young short girly friend on the phone". July didn't know what happened on the other side but before she knew it Youngbae was on the phone. "July" he said with a surprise in his voice. "Wait a minute, I'll go find a place we can talk". "There is no need" July quickly said. "It was quiet for a little while. "I... I want to meet up" July asked shyly. "Of course when?" "You have to tell me when your schedule allows you too". "I'll look, be right back. Don't hang up!" July was pacing around her room for two minutes when he came back. "I'm actually very busy the coming weeks. Is it possible for you to come to my the house next week Thursday". "Your house?" July asked unsure. "Yeah, if you don't want to that we can find another place". "No your place is fine" July interrupted him. "Then see you next week". "Until next week" July said and hung up. Her heart was still beating fast. Quickly she replaced the simcard with her new one to make a phone call. "Are you missing me already" Joon asked playfully. "You are kind of easy to talk to" July said shyly. "Or you don't have other friends here". "I do have other friends" July said offended. "Yeah yeah, now tell me what happened?" "Why do you think that I only call you for a reason". "But there is something you want to talk about right". "Yes" she admitted stubbornly. "I listen to your advice and called him". "And did everything work out?" "Not yet. We decided to meet next week". "Are you nervous?". "No!... Yes a lot". It was silence on the other side. "Do you want to come with me?" July asked softly. "Why do I need to come to you and your ex boyfriend serious conversation thingy" Joon asked. "He is not my ex boyfriend. We were just friends". "Until the real feelings came up". "How do you know that?" July asked surprised. "That is always the case". "Or... Mirah told you" July asked suspiciously. "That is also possible". "Mirah really has a big mouth" July said a little angry. "So... Do you want to come?" "No" Joon answered. "Because 1) it would be weird for me as a stranger to be there and because of that you both can't really talk 2) I don't think that he would like me to come and 3) I don't want to". "I understand" July said in the saddest voice she can. Joon signed. "What I can do is bring you and pick you up. After that we will eat ice cream or something". "I don't think the stores are open at that time. But alright bring me and pick me up" she said cheerful.

"This place is huge!!! But why are you getting out here? the front door is on the other side" Joon asked still looking at the house. "I'm going in from the back door" July took her seatbelt off. "Why?" Joon asked curious. "Because..." Nobody can see me get in. But that is not something she can say. "Because it became a habit at some point". Getting out of the car July look at the house she left behind almost three months ago. "Don't worry, talk everything out. I'll pick you up after it's done". July nodded "Come pick me up in one and a half or two hours", "which of the two?""two hours". "Alright. Do you want a hug to calm your nerves". "Yes July nodded and walked toward him into a hug. Joon was holding her very tightly but not too tight. Tight enough to calm her in that minute. "If you are done sooner call me okay". Again July nodded still holding him. Joon kissed July's forehead, turned her around and pushed her towards the house. After a quick wave she slowly walked into the house were Taeyang was waiting.