Niki Sick-fics

Niki - Mental Health

(Request by idkijmbyatm )

tw: stress, suicide attempt, self harm

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//Authors POV//

Dance practice started in 10 minutes, everyone was stretching and warming up like normal. After a few minutes everyone stood in a line to greet the dance teacher who had arrived early. They started the practice, and it was all normal. Enhypen had noticed their maknae doing extra wok during the breaks as well. Niki kept practicing when everyone was meant to be resting.

Heeseung: Niki? Stop dancing and take a break.

Niki: I'm not tired hyung, I need this practice.

Jungwon: Niki you already mastered the whole choreography.

Niki didn't respond and ignored them. He continued dancing without taking a break and was sweating from head to toe. The break was over, and Niki still had to continue dancing. Niki was very tired, but he didn't show it and danced harder than anyone else. Enhypen was confused by the determined maknae, but put off questions until later. After dance practice, everyone got into the van and before anyone could ask Niki anything, he dozed off. The car ride ended quickly, and everyone walked into the dorms.

Sunghoon: Hey Niki, why didn't you take a break today?

Niki: I just wanted to improve.

Jungwon: Like I said, you already mastered it.

Niki once again just sighed and left the room. He walked into his room and laid down, opening his phone to weverse. The members didn't know that Niki had been receiving a lot of hate lately and the stress he felt. Niki scrolled through the weverse posts about him. Some good, most were bad. A tear rolled down his cheek, he got up, wiped his tear and went to the main room. He was greeted by his members who were in the living room.

Sunoo: Niki, come eat with us!

Niki: I'm not hungry sorry.

Jay: Its bungeoppang! 

Niki: I'm good.

Jungwon: It's your favorite?

Niki: I said I'm fine.

Heeseung: Fine! Go! God, you're so rude lately.

Niki looked hurt and then walked back to his room. Heeseung repeated the hate comments, they were true and even his members thought so. Niki burst out crying beside his bed, trying to be as silent as possible. He buried his face in his knees, sobbing more. He lifted his head up and looked at his wrists. The bandages, the bandages his members never noticed. They tied around his wrist tightly, hiding whatever scars were underneath. He looked at the time, 11:46pm. It was night, it was dark, and his members were awake in the living room.

This was the last straw for Niki, the hate, his members and the stress. Niki stood up, grabbing his coat and mask. He grabbed a note from his drawer, it was written for the time this would happen. He put on his shoes and walked out of the back door, his members not noticing. He walked to the HYBE building stairs. He walked up the stairs, further and further until he reached the top. The rooftop, Niki had been there several times. For the same reason every time, he just chickened out. He sat down on the edge, watching his feet dangle over. He sighed and finally stood up, standing on the ledge. He put one foot out and shook it about and laughed.

Niki: I'm going to miss being in Enhypen.

Niki leaned forward; this was the time he finally decided it was enough.

Jungwon: IF YOU WILL MISS BEING IN ENHYPEN THEN STAY!

Niki turned around, all of his members standing at the entrance. They all looked disappointed, shocked and scared at the same time. A tear rolled down Niki's cheek.

Niki: How did you know I was here...

Jungwon: YOUR LETTER!

Jungwon held up the letter Niki wrote. He yelled in complete panic. Niki felt guilty, but he couldn't stop himself. Niki turned to face them; he stepped back more. He was close to falling backward off the building.

Heeseung: NIKI DON'T FUCKING DO THIS TO US!

All of the members were crying or trying their best not to.

Niki: Hyungs, I love you so much. Please never forget that.

Jake: NIKI! PLEASE! WE LOVE YOU TOO JUST COME DOWN FROM THERE!

Niki felt so guilty, but he really wanted this. He believed it was for the best. He didn't step down, he just stared, and cried. He wished it wasn't like this.

Niki: Bye hyungs.

Niki stepped back and was just about to fall but Heeseung ran as fast as he could yanked Niki back down. They ran to them and held Niki down.

Niki: LET ME GO! PLEASE!

Niki was crying uncontrollably and was trying to break from their grip. He pleaded, he hated that his members were seeing him like this. He eventually gave up and just covered his face with his arms, sobbing and kicking away all of his members. After a while, the members spoke up.

Jungwon: Niki, why didn't you tell us?

Jay: Can you at least say something?

Niki didn't respond, he wasn't being held down, but he was being closely watched so it's not like he could jump. He wanted to be left alone, he didn't want to ever speak to his members again, he wanted to die.

The members eventually walked up to him and picked him up so they could walk back to the dorms. Niki was still sulking quietly and didn't take his arms away from his face. They finally got down all of the stairs and Niki broke free and ran to his room. He locked the door and finally felt at peace.

Jungwon: I still can't believe everything that just happened.

Sunoo: I wonder how long he felt like this...

Jay: Just leave him for tonight, he doesn't want to talk to us

Heeseung: Yeah, okay but someone is going to have to stay up for the night to make sure he doesn't sneak out again.

Sunghoon: Let's all do it.

The members agreed and they stayed up, Niki never came out but it was better to make sure.

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To be continued? Idk if ill make a part 2 but just ask and maybe i will (if i have the motivation)

Thanks for reading and I hope u have a good day/night!

Love yousssssssss