7 Days Without You

Day 4

Aug 5, 2023

It's been 3 days we didn't talk to each other. I wait for your call each and every second, but at the end of the day, I get back to bed disappointed.

I never forced you for anything nor did I command you. I have always been loyal to you since the day I fell in love with you.

I remember the day we had a small conflict in between us and you began highlighting it by banging it on to your family members. And your mother started interfering in between our affairs.

I have always known it from the beginning that your mother doesn't like me. She has always been willing us to separate so as to get his son under his control. And obviously, it's a common inclination of every mother. But being a Momma's Boy, you have always been defending her for each and every mistake she has been doing.

Being a son, staying committed towards your parents is your responsibility, but defending your mother by covering her faults while insulting your spouse, will only lead to destruction of our relationship. And that day, you beat me for the first time after getting manipulated by your mother's words. You still continue calling it as my fault even till today. I'll never forget May 26, 2023. It was the worst nightmare of my life. You almost destroyed our relationship through that incident. I had never imagined you to show such a worst side of yours. And that day I realized that marriage is not everyone's cup of tea.

Even though I broke my relationship with my parents when they insulted you, you never stood beside me while I got humorously offended by your mother. Rather you took your mother's side and abused me through your expletive words and unacceptable actions. It still hurts me thinking about that tragic moment.
But however, I didn't want to give up on you so easily and moreover, I didn't want your mother to win. Hence, I decided to get along with you again. But the wound you gave me would never heal. Even till today, I still cry thinking about that terrible experience. I never thought you to be so vulgarious.

However, I chose to be with you just because I can't stop loving you. And that became my weakness.

I have been loving you since we got bound together and I know that I can't forget you so easily. But once I start hating someone, I'll be a different person that no one could have ever imagined. And that's my strength which I don't want to utilize upon you.

I don't want to think about my dark days with you, but the way you ignore me reminds me about those bitter instants.

The thing that hurts me more is that you have time to talk to your family members, but you don't have a minute to talk to me. Since we got apart, I have just become a stranger friend to whom you would just say hi and hello.

I didn't demand anything from you, neither in the past, nor now. I just seek your love, your attention, your time, your sweet talks, your soft touch and nothing much. But these are too expensive for me to buy from you.

Why don't you feel the same way as I feel for you??

Am I too hard to understand??