7 Days Without You

Day 6

Aug 7, 2023

Today, I'm feeling the most disturbed inside, not knowing where my life is taking me. I'm trying my best to be okay, but everyday is just too hard for me.

You have always been kind to me until you got transferred to Chennai. Everything was fine until you relocated to Chennai.

Even though our wedding was arranged by our parents, everyone resembled as love birds. Maybe because they thought we were made for each other. Same were my thoughts too. You never let me feel as if I'm going to marry a stranger. You understood me and treated me so well that I never had a single doubt about you.
But slowly, my belief upon you became my nightmare.

I remember you told me that you never had a girlfriend before. And that's what made you so committed towards our relationship. But few days after getting shifted to Chennai, I observed lots of changes in your behavior.

You stopped calling or texting me often, compared to those long conversations we used to have on call before. Even when I called you, you hung up replying me to be too busy at work. You didn't even call me back after returning home from your workplace.

Your behavior made me feel insecure about our relationship and I decided to travel to Chennai.

June 14. It was my birthday and you didn't even wish me. And two days later you texted me that you forgot my birthday due to too much work pressure.

You continued your excuses and I remained silent trusting them, until the day I visited your residence at Chennai.

You didn't pick up my call even when I called you continuously. It was too difficult for me to find your address in an unknown city without even knowing it's local language. I still succeeded in finding you. But you didn't seem to be happy seeing me after such a long time. Everything seemed too suspicious to me.

You neither welcomed me, nor treated me well. The only thing you asked again and again was my departure date.

My eyes were filled with tears, my heart ached. I never thought of getting stuck in such an unwanted situation. I wanted to leave the city then and there. But I didn't. I decided to find out the truth behind my suspicion.

And finally the day arrived. My departure flight was delayed by 4 hours due to bad weather. I decided to return back to your room. But on the way, I found your bike being parked infront of another residence, very close to your house.

I stopped there. I covered a scarf and rang the doorbell of that house. A lady in her 30s opened the door, wearing a nighty. My suspicion increased. I pushed the lady and rushed into her bedroom. I was stunned to find you naked on her bed.

I broke down. I was unable to utter a single word after catching you red-handed in such a condition. It was hard for me to believe that the person I knew to be so decent and loyal, stabbed me behind my back.

I went away. I couldn't dare to stand there even for a second. I flew back to my hometown and asked my parents to call off our wedding. My parents repeatedly asked me the reason, but I didn't answer a single question. I could only burst out my tears enclosing myself in my room.

Two days later, you arrived at my house. I didn't want to see your face at first. But you fell down on your knees and apologized to me. You begged me to grant you a second chance. I never wanted our relationship to break down so easily. Hence, I agreed. I forgave you even after you cheated on me for sexual pleasure. I gave you a last chance to prove your loyalty. But I was wrong. No one can straighten up a dog's tail.

You carried on your act of loyalty in front of me, but you still continued fulfilling your sexual need with the lady.

I gave you another chance just to save our relationship from drowning, even after your flendish act. I cared so much for you. I forgave your every mistake. But you still continued hurting me.

And it was all a dream. It was a dream I saw early in the morning today and my body started shivering all of a sudden.

I know you're loyal, you're decent, you're a gentleman. But I still feel insecure. I still couldn't breathe in peace when you're not around me.

Maybe I overthink too much. But that's because I couldn't let you go to anyone else. I couldn't share you with anyone. Maybe I'm too greedy, but that's the least I want. I want to be with you forever, but you don't even give a shit to my feelings.

Am I too hard to understand??