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Quote of the day- ᴛʀᴜᴛʜ ɪꜱ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ'ꜱ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʜᴜʀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ: ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɢᴏᴛᴛᴀ ꜰɪɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡᴏʀᴛʜ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴇʀɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ

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The red light was on indicating the operation going inside the emergency room, the redness of it was not anything that could be compared to the red bleeding heart of the boy standing beside the door looking all pale like a statue, it was quite dreading to look at boy , he was there but also not there. You know sometimes you are there , your body is there, your presence is there, your everything is there but still nothing feels like you are there, like your heart is not there with you, your soul is not there with you, you are breathing but just breathing as a process to live but actually not living. He was there, the male could see him there but he couldn't feel his presence its as if he was lifeless just being there and not actually present, it was painful enough for the people to see how and what the guy must be going through ,his eyes were wide but void, his lips were sealed all dry and pale, throat bobbing once in a while but gulping in nothing but pain, chest heaving up and down slowly just to intake air enough to let the lungs feel the presence of air in them, he looked like a statue standing tall without any movement which made the another present male worried but he know he could do nothing, he couldn't ease the pain which was graved into the heart of the boy , the fear that was looming inside the boy's eyes, he could do nothing but just watch which made him feel pathetic

Inside the ER

"His heart is dying , we have to do something soon before its gone. Nurse bring defibrillator " the nurse hurriedly brought out equipment needed to make the nearly lifeless boy's heart to function once again

"On the count of three-1 2 3 go" one shock ....nothing

"Once again - 1 2 3 " ..... nothing

The process went on the doctors keep trying everything they could but once a heart is dead from inside no matter how much effort we make from outside all it would be vain right. Just like that Taehyung's heart was dying not because of all the suffocation he felt being underwater no , not because of lack of air inside his lungs no but because of continuous pain and hurt he got from people who were supposed to cherish him, he was living but they killed something inside of him making him lifeless even when he was alive

He was dead , his heart was dead from a long time but this time it seems he was physically gonna be dead too, his soul was dead so long before but it looked like it was really gonna leave his body once for all this time, a timid heartbeat that was in his heart was slowly fading slowly dying making him dead for real this time, after this he wouldn't have to suffer anything right, everything would be peaceful, painless, soothing. He will go to his grandpa and grandma who loved him dearly whom he missed every moment every second of his life, he should feel happy right but why there was this little gloomy feeling in his heart which was tugging his heart so bad making it feel the painful hurt, he knows this hurt wasn't from his heart, this gloomy feeling wasn't his feeling, this suffocation wasn't his ..... but if it wasn't his then whose?! These thoughts kept ringing in his mind causing chaos which he wasn't able to solve

There was chaos inside the ER , doctor and nurses running here and there with different equipment in their hands, trying everything they could to keep the beeping on the machine going on, but slowly and eventually they felt the rumbling of heartbeat lines fading , the beeping slowing down to nothing, nothing at all

The boy suddenly gasped out loud clutching his heart as he fell down on his knees eyes pouring tears nonstop chest going up and down in such a moment as if the lungs were greedily trying to take as much air as it could, his body was shaking , he knew what it means ,he knew what his body ,what his heart wants to tell him ,he knew what was happening , he knew he was late ,he knew his heart was no more......loud cry was heard in the lobby as the male ran towards the boy engulfing him into a hug he also knew why the boy was suddenly acting like this because he himself was in place of the boy few years before but he was lucky enough ,he hoped his brother would be lucky enough like him ,he hoped his father would never let them hurt but we know too hopes and promises always gets broken when we are tugging into them dearly, he himself couldn't control his tears as the boy into his arms cried loudly shaking like a fallen leaves in stormy weather, his shirt was soaked by the amount of tears the boy was shedding