너를 그리워 했었어,
우리가 만나기 전부터요.
I was missing you,
Even before we met.
Chapter 2
He ran and ran on the endless road,tears running down his face as he screamed in pain.
He could feel his heart beat ringing in his ears loudly.no matter how fast he ran,he couldn't get any close to the person who was far away from him.
He could feel his legs burning in pain,it felt numb.he dropped to the ground on his knees helplessly,begging for them to not to leave him.
"Please!don't- don't leave me!you can't leave me like this!"
He screamed as he broke down into tears.
"Why...why did you...leave me...why?"
His voice echoed trough the empty and lonely dark road,as he stared at the figure trough his tears that was far away from him to catch and keep with him.
He knew he was too late.
"Young-ah"
The figure spoke.he stopped crying immediately.he could feel himself holding his breath as he hears the voice he longed for all his life,the voice he missed so much,the voice he wished to have back by his side.
"Don't cry,Young-ah.you know that I whould always love you,right?"
"YOU LIED!YOU WON'T LEAVE ME IF YOU DID!!"
He felt pathetic.he knew,he was being pathetic.he didn't deserve this.why?why does everyone break his trust like this?why does he have to lose everyone that he had by his side?
He hated to have people that loved him because at the end,he knew that he whould lose them.
"Young-ah.I'm sorry.I- I know I broke your trust but please,don't cry.I'll always be there by your heart,forever.
I promise,Young-ah.I'm always there with you.I love you."
With that,the voice slowly started fading.
The end he hated so much.
Tears ran down his cheecks as he begged them not to go,not to leave him.but from the far away,he could see them smiling beautifully at him,as if to comfort him which only made him cry harder.
He stared at those teary eyes with his own eyes which was red from crying,mumbling the words while looking at the fading figure of them.
"I- I love you too- Hyung."
The person he loved more than anything in the world.
The person he had to lose at a very young age.
His dear brother,who he loved so much.
Wooyoung opened his eyes,sobbing in pain as he felt a stabbing pain in his chest.
The same nightmare over and over again.
Tears ran down on his cheecks as he stared into the space in his dark room.the sound of heavy rain starting pour started ringing in his ears.
Why can't he get used to it?
Wooyoung got off from the bed,stumbling a bit as he wiped his tears away.he had to pull himself together.this wasn't the first time,afterall.
After all these years getting the same nightmare again and again,he couldn't get used to it.
No matter how many times he saw it,he whould always wake up crying with the familiar stinging pain in his chest.
He walked to the kitchen lazily.he just wanted to do nothing,and just lay down somewhere and pass out the whole day.but his hunger was eating him alive.he hasn't eaten anything for days now,he looked almost like a walking skelton.he didn't mind how people gave him weird and worried looks whenever they pass by him.
But wearing a big hoodie and a mask to cover his face when going out did help in not getting judged as much as he does daily.
He opened his fridge to find it empty,expect for some leftover ceriel which he hated eating.but having no choice,he took it out,placing it on the table and sitting down,eating it quitely.
He wondered what it whould be like to have someone with him to eat together.
It was already 4 p.m.he had fallen sleep for a quite long time,again.he took his phone out,massaging his manager apologizing for not coming to work due to his health condition to which the manager replied him with a "It's okay,you don't have to come untill you feel alright." making him smile a bit.
Having nothing to done,he started scrolling trough social media,finding nothing interesting on it.eventually he finish the cerial just a while after.
He wears his usual black hoodie,his earbuds playing 'Cigarettes after Sex - K' on repeat.he takes out his keys,and money,leaving his apartment.
Cigarettes After Sex songs that made Wooyoung happy and feel comforted.
He sighed.
Maybe taking a small walk outside and buying some food to eat will do.
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FanfictionWooyoung was always a nobody. his life was nothing more or less than boring, that's what he always thought. one day, a boy named San moves into next door apartment. the two's first meet was awkward, as they both make a bad impression on one another...
