vent? idk

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by KK__KARKALICIOUS

by KK__KARKALICIOUS

This is... Idk. It can be concerning? But also not? Again- I DON'T KNOW. So take it as a vent if you wish to. You may continue.

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ՏOᑎᘜ ᒪIՏTᗴᑎᗴᗪ TO ᗯᕼIᒪᗴ ᗯᖇITIᑎᘜ ;
"ᵢ 𝒹ₑₛₑᵣᵥₑ ₜₒ ᵦₗₑₑ𝒹 ₈𝒹 ₐᵤ𝒹ᵢₒ "
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Y'know, sometimes when I see something my heart rate spikes, and I freeze. I know my heart beat races since I can hear it in my ears.. As if it's in them. I freeze but can move at the same time I guess?

I get freeze, or the thought that I'm frozen. Something telling me that I'm frozen, yet I can move-- I'd them around the point I'm moving will get the urge to cry, yet when I try to nothing ever comes out.

I also start to dissociate, or zone out. But I can hear and see everything-- as if I'm still in my mindset but for a moment it's not me but then it's me again, and then a thought echoes through my head, yet most times.. I can't remember. I don't know why. It's annoying.

Sometimes, it can take an hour for me heart rate to cool down, y'know that? And I can hear it. I can feel it calm down. And I react as if it's normal, though when this begins I curse under my breath and ask myself; "what the f*ck is happening-? ", oy to realize that it's the same thing that happens randomly. I can never tell when it'll show, but I know it's there. ?