Oh Phil..♡

Part 1

Dan's Pov
Can you keep a secret?
I'm in love with my best friend.

Ever since I met Phil Lester I thought he was beautiful. Jet black emo hair that shapes his chiselled pale face perfectly, his slender body and big blue eyes that you could get lost in and never return.

His personality has to be the best thing about Phil. He's so adorable and caring, he always puts others needs first.

I will always remember the day we met. The first embrace, nothing lovey dovey, just friendly. Although I wish it was more than friendly..
The night we first met was the best day of my life.

We went out for pizza, the whole time I pretended it was an actual date. Don't judge me! I couldn't help it he's just so gorgeous.

When he had to leave I remember being so sad so we skyped immediately after planning to meet up next week and film a video for YouTube.

The more time we spent together the more I fell in love with Phil. His northern accent never failed to make me laugh every now and then when he said a word funny.

Our first video 'Phil is not on fire' we thought a highly appropriate and inventive name. Actually it was just our user names on YouTube merged together, still it sounded good. At the end of the video Phil tackled me with a hug. What didn't make it into the video was the 10 seconds we spent looking into each other's eyes. I thought we where going to kiss but he just pulled himself off me. Best 10 seconds ever though!

We decided eventually to move in together. We purchased an apartment in Manchester as I went to uni there.. Yeah uni didn't quite work out heheh. Anyway a few years later we decided to move to London and it was one of the best decisions we ever made. I hope to live with him forever but I know one day Phil may find a girl and leave me. And that scares me so badly because What if we lost contact? What would I do then?!

Talking about girls, I've always known I was bi but I don't know about Phil. That's why I'm so afraid of telling him how I feel. What if he thinks I'm some gay freak? What would I do without my Philly?
I live with him so if he doesn't feel the same way, would I have to move out? I can't risk loosing him.

"Dan? Can you come here a sec"

"Yeah what do you want?" I enter Phil's room to see him struggling with his mirror.

" Can you hold it up so I can get a good view of my new coat, pretty please?"
God he's so fucking cute.

"Of course" I chuckle

"Do you think it looks good, or do I just look like a nerd?"

"Yeah it looks nice"

"Are you okay Dan, you seem a little off today?"

"I'm fine.. Just tired. I'm gonna go to bed okay?"

"T-to bed? But it's only 5:30 i thought we could order a pizza and watch Pokemon or something?"

"Yeah I'm just not feeling up to it right now, I think I may be on my man period"
Phil laughed. God his laugh, it was so damn cute. Fuck I wanted to kiss him so badly.

"Okay Dan you have a little nap, you sure you're okay?"

"Yeah,don't worry about me"

"But I do worry about you Dan..."

First chapter donee :)) IK it's v v short but this is my first try part 2 coming soon loves♡