Fangirl

The prettiest boy in the glade

I hear gasps when I walk into breakfast the next day. My hair is short. I cut it. And it's not like a couple inches or anything. I cut my hair into a pixie. I even gave myself side bangs to keep a little bit of girl inside me. I wear black skinny jeans and a leather vest like tris's from insurgent. I love there shocked faces. I walk confidently to my seat in between Thomas and newt "hey" I say plainly "ummm, Emma." He pauses as if scared to tell me "Do you know someone cut all your hair off?" I smirk "I cut my hair because I'm sick of everyone treating me differently because I'm a girl." I say. I hear him say 'thank god' under his breath. "You look amazing little sista" Thomas says. "Yea" says Minho dreamily. Everyone nods in agreement and newt is staring at me like I'm some prized jewel or something. 'No' I think 'no no no no no no NO!' I say to my self. "No!" I say aloud this time. They all quite down and stare at me. "UGGH" I groan. "You guys backfired my plan" I think out of the fifteen, I know only one person that is actually blinking, me. "What plan?" Thomas asks but I'm already out the door. What do they want now, for me to go bald. I storm right to my room. Anger hits me like a brick wall. I can't be here anymore. Not like this. Weird to think months ago I would have dreamed of this. I sigh. I'm better than this. I just have to block them out. Ugh. I'm such a teenager.
I'm in a really bad mood and I know it. What is wrong with me? I should be overly excited that newt has a crush on me. I have had a crush on him ever since I read the book. I sigh. Speaking of books....... I pull out the fault in our stars. I've read it a million times but I don't have any new books left in my collection. I begin to read...........And read.......... And read........and read. I hear the bell 4 lunch. I guess it's time to go. Today, without asking, I toke a personal day off running. oops!
I really don't feel like seeing everyone so I continue to read. About a half an hour later I decide I am hungry. I shut my book and jump off my bed. I sigh and brush my fingers through my, now short hair, and put on a pair of black combat boots. I sneak into the kitchen unspotted and grab a sandwich from the fridge.
"Emma?"
Crap.
"Hey, are you okay" the glader asks the turns to the door. "Guys! She's in here!" He screams. Thomas and newt are of corse the first ones in the room.
"Emma." Thomas says "are you alright" newt asks.
I don't answer but slightly shake my head. Slowly walking backwards towards the door. Tons are in the room now. "Emma!" I hear chuck say. "Emma, what's wrong?" I hear Minho say. "Emma." Newt puts his warm hand on my arm and I wince. "Are you okay" his eyes are like soft, melted chocolate or whipped frosting that makes you just want to hug him until he's yours.
"I'm," I start. I look around. Every one has fallen silent. "No." I say. My hand finds the doorknob. "Not here" I say looking newt straight in the eye with a cold expression on my face. I quickly turn it, spin around and sprint without looking back.