ONLY RATED MATURE BC OF THE TOPICS NO SMUT whatsoever bc both me and the sturniolos don't feel comfortable with it. ⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ su!c!de, s3lf h4rm, and mental health topics.
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chapter one
irl
nobodys pov
lexi used to talk alot, she would be loud, she would laugh without having to cover her mouth, she would wear tight clothes, she would eat until she got full, she went to school without a trace of makeup on her face. she never really gave a shit about what others had to say about her. until freshman year that is. she got told she talks too much, so she stopped. she got told her teeth were ugly, so everytime she laughs or smiles she covers her mouth. she got told she was ' asking for it ' so now she only ever wears oversized clothes. she got told she was getting fat, so she stopped eating entirely. she got told she was ugly, so now she comes to school with as much makeup as she can put while still making it look natural. lexi doesnt have many friends. everyone leaves her at some point. everyone excpat for nick, matt, chris, and venus. theyve had that friend group since kindergarten.
lexis pov
ring ring i wake up to the sound of my alarm going off. i sigh as i realize its the first day of junior year.
fuck, i think to myself as i turn off my alarm.
i get out of under my covers and slip my fuzzy crocs on.
" shit, its cold " i say to myself grabbing a sweater from my overfilling laundry basket. i slip the sweater on, instantly feeling warmer as i zip it halfway up. i go to my bathroom and look in the mirror.
why am i so fucking ugly? i think to myself.
a/n:
im really sorry that this is a short ass chapter but ive been wanting to write this FOREVER bc i can never find storys abt the people i am interested in while also having mental health playing a huge factor in it. anyways i love u guys so much and if ur ever having bad thoughts lmk and u can vent to me.
