To The One I wish I Never Met. (Done.)

June 10, 2015

We shared wonderful memories. We had a lot of things to remember about us. We once had been perfect.

I grew up believing that one day, I could get to find a great a man. An intelligent, intellectual, loving, caring, nice man. One I could grow up with. One that could make me feel perfect.

And then One day, I met you. You did make me feel perfect. You made me want to grow old with you. But No, you are not a nice man. And I was such a fool for believing you were. I should've seen it from the very beginning.

I had a crush on you way back on highschool and you never court me. You just asked if I could be your girlfriend July 22, 7:32PM. And I am blinded by the thought of having you as my boyfriend. I should've think first. For christ's sake, you did not even court me! I should've realized that was one heck of a bad move. But no, I was just blinded by having you as my boyfriend.

Did you realize how much I loved you way back then? Yes. It is loved for I am now learning to unlove you. I had enough of your schemes. I was once blinded by you. Okay, maybe not once, maybe four times or more than that. I really made myself an idiot don't you think?

I am the kind of person you gives advises to my friend and the one who scolds them for tolerating their jerk boyfriend. I am good at that job, tolerating my jerk boyfriend. Though Im also good at giving advises but never to myself.

I was too young back then and I should've known better. I should have listened to my Mom when she said that I should not rush things and just get a man when I finished college but I was too curious. And curiousness leads to one thing then another, curiousness led me to pain, heartbreak, and solitude.

Did you know that I regret knowing you. I regret having you in my life. I regret being your girlfriend! I regret your existence.

You made me believe of forever. You hid all your skills of implying pain to a heart on your sweet boyfriend mask. I love that mask.