Torn Apart

14

Irene's POV

Nabitawan ko ang aking cellphone. Nanginginig akong umatras sa kama hanggang sa naramdaman ko na ang headboard sa likuran ko.

"Irene! Babe! What's going on?!" Greggy was shaking my shoulder. My tears started to fall.

"G-greg..." nanginginig kong sabi. I cannot watch it. I don't want to watch it. Paano kung makita iyon ni Greggy?

Ayoko...

"Irene! Shit... wait, babe." He suddenly stood up and went to the kitchen. Pagkabalik niya ay may dala na siyang tubig.

"Hey, hey... Drink this." He handed me a glass of water. Kinuha ko iyon at ininom. Ang mga kamay ko ay nanginginig parin.

"What's the matter?" He ask again. I shook my head. Umiiyak parin ako kaya sinubsob niya ako sa dibdib niya at mahigpit na niyakap.

"Irene..." mas umiyak ako ng malakas at kung may dadaan man sa tapat ng kwarto namin ay maririnig talaga ang pag-iyak ko.

"G-greg..." hindi ko kayang sabihin sa kanya. I don't want. Ayoko makita ng asawa ko. Hindi pwede...

"Hey, calm down..." he rubbed my back. I shook my head again, desperately.

"Natatakot ako, Greggy... Greggy wag mo'kong iwan." I clutch his shirt.

"Why are you saying that? Babe, can you face me?" He ask politely. I let go of the hug. I look at him with blurry sight.

"Greggy, wag mo'kong iwan..." paulit-ulit kong sabi. His brows furrowed.

"Can you tell me what's happening? I told you not to open social media, right? Did you open one of your social media?" He ask. I shook my head.

"No... hindi ko ginagalaw mga social media ko." Pangatwiran ko.

"Then why are you crying? Hmm?" He kissed my hair.

"Greggy... don't ever leave me. Please parang awa mo na..." i grip tighter his shirt.

I look at him and saw his puzzling look. Pinaupo na ako ng maayos bago takpan ang kalahating katawan ko ng kumot.

He went beside me, akala ko ay aabotin niya ang lampshade pero cellphone ko ang kinuha niya.

Kukunin ko pa sana sa kanya pero nalayo niya na ito. He opened it. He check all of social media, until he went to my messages.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at gusto nalang kunin sa kanya ang cellphone ko but i can't protest.

"Greg..."

"Stay still." He said with his baritone voice.

I saw him open the message from Lorenzo. I don't know where did he get my phone number.

Tinakpan ko ang sarili ko ng kumot at hindi na siya tiningnan dahil alam kong titingnan niya ang video na yun.

I can't imagine if Greggy would leave me. Hindi ko kaya...

Paano kung mandiri na siya pagkatapos niyang tingnan ang bedyo? Paano kung ayaw niya na akong hawakan dahil nahawakan na ako ng ibang mga lalaki?

What if he will leave me and took our children away from me? Paano kung maghanap siya ng masmalinis na babae?

Ayoko...

My thoughts vanish when someone pull the comforter away from my face. Nakita ko ang pag-igting ng panga ni greggy.

Will he leave me now?

"Iiwan mo ako?" Mahina kong sabi. I look away from him before he could nod.

"Irene..." now he is already calling me Irene.

"Iwan mo na ako." Walang gana ko'ng sabi. Bigla ko'ng naramdaman ang pagyakap niya sakin.

"Hey, look at me" he commanded. I shook my head.

"Ayoko..." my voice crack.

"Baby..."

"Stop. Iwan mo nalang ako." I closed my eyes. And moment later i was already seeing black.

Pagdilat ko ng mga mata ko ay umaga na. I wander my eyes and saw no one. Nakagat ko ang labi ko and my eyes were already watering.

He left? Didn't he?

He saw the video of course he's disgusted with my presence already...

Tumayo ako at pilit na hindi umiyak. I went to the bathroom and wash my face. Tumingin ako sa salamin and there... my tears started to fall.

I cried so hard and my sob was so loud. Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagiyak ko because i was thinking Greggy really leave me.

My vision was now really blurry, hindi ko na halos makita ang nasa paligid ko.

I felt someone was carrying me. Hindi ko makita ang mukha niya dahil sa mga luha ko.

"Babe? Can you hear me? Can you please calm down?" Bigla akong nabuhayan sa narinig ko'ng boses.

"G-greggy?" Nahihirapan kong sabi.

"Yes, baby? Can you hear me? Hey... drink this please..." he handed me a glass of water.

Ininom ko naman agad iyon at tinulungan niya ako dahil nanginginig ako.

"Iiwan mo ako?" I manage to ask between me, crying.

"What are you saying? I just went to our daughter's room. She was crying because of her bad dreams, babe" Nakagat ko ang labi ko.

"I-i thought y-you already l-leave me..." pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko.

He tilted my head and dried my tears. "I love you, okay? That's just a video. My love for you is more than my life. Don't doubt my love for you , babe." He kissed my forehead.

"S-sorry..." maliit kong sabi.

"You're adorable. I just waited for you so that we can eat our breakfast. Can you manage to walk? Or papadeliver ko nalang dito sa room?" He was asking me softly.

"I can walk..."

Tumango siya at tinulongan ako. We went at the buffet area and he was assisting me while I'm choosing the food i want to eat.

"Is that all you want to eat?" He caressed my arm. I nodded and smiled at him.

We seated on a vacant table. "Just eat, okay? I'm just gonna go to the bathroom." He inform me.

Tumango nalang ako dahil may pagkain sa bibig ko. I was eating peacefully and I finish all the food i eat.

I am craving for it and thankfully it was available. Hindi parin bumabalik si Greggy kaya nilibot ko ang paningin ko.

Tanging mga tao lang na nag-aagahan ang nandito. Siguro kanina pa sila Mommy nag-umagahan at hindi ko na sila naabotan.

Tumayo ako para pumunta sa bathroom to wash my hands and to look at my eyes. I bet it was so puffy right now.

My brows furrowed when i saw Greggy talking to a woman. Nakahawak ito sa braso ng asawa ko and he was smiling.

Nakaramdam ako ng parang may tumutusok sa dibdib ko. The woman was smiling while they are seated to a chair not so far from the buffet area where he left me alone, eating.

Kaya ba hindi niya ako sinamahan kumain dahil sa babae na yun? I went to our room instead of the bathroom down there where i saw him with a woman.

Siguro nga mas mabuti na yun. I don't deserve him. Madumi na ako. I am disgusting already. A lot of men touched me already.