Dear diary,
Happy new year. Its 2017 now, and im turning 16. Yet im still locked in my room. I can hear my family chattering loudly downstairs, i think theyre gonna get drunk again on new years.
And its dangerous. for me.
School starts tomorrow, even though i dont want to go. Honestly, school sucks. Theres this dude named Kavis that always bullies me for my height. Ive been failing quite alot since my mental health sucks ass nowadays thanks to my family. Therapy doesnt even help. The only person i can turn to is Octo. Ive been keeping this for a long time inside my thoughts, but Octo is like a mother figure to me. I love it alot. I havent been treated well before before i met her. I wish i had the guts to thank her as much as i can. I also have another male friend, his name is Dawn. Sometimes he whacks me whenever i mess up, but that is okay. Even if i feel really pain. I always have to forgive everyone so they can forgive me.
Speaking of my friends, i still talk to my online friends. And turns out day by day ive been more comfortable with my online name - Syka! I know it sounds russian(?), but i think it fits well with me :)
I find comfort in my room alone. My family hates me so i would rather not disturb them nor even make them look at me. And yeah, they hate me till the point they start hurting me.
Oh i just heard glass shattering. Alright bye.
1/1/18
YOU ARE READING
dear diary
De Todo:: This story is all fake and fictional. This book has relation to one of my ocs from the series Lost and Found that im making. Mentions of Abuse, Suicide, heavy topics are included.
