Crazy Love

Betrayal, & Suicide Thoughts

Abigail's POV

It's been a few days since Jeydons birthday party and everything's gone smoothly. We're all actually happy. I didn't realize how much I needed Jeydon until now. He's just an amazing person. Inside and out. To be closer to him is just more than I can imagine.

To cuddle up to him is like heaven. To be able to hold his hand is a gift. To be able to kiss him and he around him is greater than than anything. Just to be with him is a dream. It's just unexplainable how happy I am.

"Heyyyy" Jeydon spoke waving his hand in my face as I blinked, snapping out of my trance.

"Huh? Oh..sorry. What was that?" I asked looking at him as he laid beside me.

"Nothing, you just zoned out" he shrugged chuckling lightly.

"Oh. Sorry" I slightly mumbled, but loud enough for him to hear.

"It's ok. What's on your mind" he asked curiously.

"Just thinking about how happy I am with you" I slightly smiled, resting my head on his chest.

"Same here" he said as I listened to the soothing sound of his heartbeat. Which lured me into sleep.

"Yea" I said as I slowly closed my eyes.

"Sleep princess" he mumbled kissing my forehead and with those words and gesture I fell into a deep, and peaceful sleep.

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I sat up with a yawn stretching my arms out as I rubbed my eyes. I looked to my side expecting to see Jeydon, but frowned once I saw that he was no longer there. I shrugged it off thinking that he's just downstairs or something.

I got up slowly, and walked into the bathroom. I did my business, washed my hand and walked out. I put my hair up into a messy bun. Trying to at least tame it for a while. I sighed and walked out of the room.

Once I made it down stairs the TV was on in the livingroom so I just strolled in. I gasped loudly, clamping my hand over my mouth. Lizzie was practically snogging Jeydons face off. How can this be?! She's so dirty! He's so dirty! How did this even happen?

My gasp must have startled them since they both quickly pulled away and look at me with flushed cheeks. My hand still covered my mouth as I felt tears emerge as they started to fall freely. Kinda like a little waterfall. I sobbed loudly and ran up to my room. I slammed the door , locking it as I heard Jeydon bang on it.

"Abby open up!" Jeydon yelled.

"No! Go away you prick!" I yelled as uncontrollable sobs left my weak and broken body.

I thought I was actually happy. That I actually found love. But boy was I absolutely wrong. How could he kiss my 14 year old sister? How low can he possibly get? Why would he do this to me? After I told him everything? And actually gave my heart to him? Wow...

Wow was all I could say. I should just die. I shouldn't be here. I'm just a waste of space on this earth. I have no meaning, no purpose. I'm nothing. Just like my father said , I'm worthless. And that true. I don't belong here. No matter blue hard I try to fit in and act and be happy.

I always fail. I'm just a big failure. A mistake. Jeydon continuously banged on the door as I cowered into a corner, knees up to my chest as I sobbed.

"Please open up, let me explain" he silently begged, though I clearly heard him.

"Why would you do this to me?" I sobbed.

"Abby I didn't mean to hurt you. She forced herself onto me. You gotta believe me" he pleaded.

I hugged my body and shook as I sobbed.