"It all started when I was 14 years old..." You told Jinki the story of your past.
It hurt so much, but you figured that it was the least you could do. Now he would see how dirty and useless you felt you were.
"My mother she was trying to move on from the death of my father and she would often bring men home... One in particular was fond of me. I remember the day cleary, I mean who could ever forget the day they got raped right?"
Jinki's face was full of surprise and sorrow. His eyebrows raised and then slowly came down making his face look sad and worried.
"You don't have to tell me if it hurts, y/n," Jinki put a hand on yours where it laid on your leg.
"It's okay...maybe this will help in some way. Maybe this will get rid of the horrid nightmare.."
Jinki looked down and let you continue.
"I remember I was sitting down on my bed listening to the song 'No Maybes' by Lisa Lovbrand. I was just singing along happily when my mother and him came home. They went drinking and I could hear them in the next room. They were loud and it was disgusting you know? I didn't think they would get angry with me over such a silly thing.. I got up and locked the door of my room and turned the volume up louder to try and drown it out. Apparently that man hated Americans and was annoyed with the English words going through the walls." you closed your eyes tightly remembering the knocks and pounding on the door.
"I tried to ignore him I promise! H-he knocked down the door and my mother she stood there- s-she watched everything from the doorway. She didn't stop him when he hit me, when he ripped my clothes off, when he finished and left me bleeding on the bed. She just smiled and they left..."
"Y/n," Jinki whispered whiping a tear away from your eyes.
"That was the last time I ever saw them... Ladt time I heard they left the country and fled to Japan.."
"Wait...then that boy.."
"Yes... He is my child.. After giving birth to him I sent him to that orphanage.. Never once did I visit him... I don't plan on it either... How embarrassing would it be to learn that you were the product of rape?"
Jinki didn't speak after you finished the story. You both sat in silence not looking at eachother, just held hands.
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The morning came and went for three months and you both didn't have class that today. You sat in your bed just remembering about how you actually managed to stay in one place for so long. For some reason though you felt like it was okay... This was okay...
