Waves

New Start

*BEEP BEEP BEEP*

"Ugghhh..." I moaned as I rolled over on my side and lazily pushed the snooze button on my alarm clock.

I don't want to get up. I just want to lay here for the rest of my life. Here in my warm bed and under my big old quilt my grandma made me before she died. I know what your thinking. How could I live in this place after what my dad did? Well I've learned to hide my pain. I secretly cut myself. I wear long sleeves a lot, so nobody notices...not even my mom.

I like to cut. It relieves my pain. I tried to stop, but I can't.

I sat up and swung my legs over the side of my bed. I stood up to fast and got an instant dizzy feeling in my head. "Ugh." I said.

I walked over to my closet and picked out a long-sleeve black ACDC shirt. I looked in my dresser and pulled out my favorite turquoise jean shorts. After picking out my clothes for the day I slowly walked up the creaky spiral staircase, the cold steps causing me to shiver. I got to the top and opened the door.

I ran to the bathroom and shut and locked the door. I stripped out of my huge red t-shirt and my sweatpants while turning on the shower. I stepped in letting the hot water wash over me. It burned at first but I got used to it. I grabbed my coconut scented shampoo bottle, opened it and squirted some on my hands and washed my hair. I repeated with conditioner. I then washed my body and turned off the shower. I stepped out and wrapped a towel around me. I unlocked the door and walked out, cold air blowing against my body. I turned down the hallway and darted to the basement door. I opened it and flew down the steps.

I walked over to my dresser and got out my red bra and matching underwear. I put them on quickly after removing my towel. I slipped on my shirt and shorts. I walked over to my small bathroom. My bathroom only has a toilet, sink and mirror, so I have to take my showers upstairs. I plugged in my blow dryer and curling iron. I blow dried my hair quickly. After drying my hair I put on some light makeup. Foundation, mascara, and some eyeliner. I brushed my hair then picked up my curling iron and started to spiral curl my long, black, hair. I let it fall loosely down my back, pinning my bangs back.

After I finished doing my hair I walked out of my bathroom, turning the light off. I skipped over to my bed, getting on my knees and reaching under and pulling out my large shoe box. I decided to wear my black converse. They were my favorite pair, even though they were all ripped and falling apart, I still wore them almost everyday.

I grabbed my backpack and my French book that was sitting on my table. I walked over to the staircase turning off the lights as I walked up. I opened the door and ran over to the kitchen to grab something to eat before I walked to school. I walked in to find my mom on the phone gossiping about who knows what with her friend, most likely Sarah.

"Hi honey." She said glancing at me quickly before turning back to the toaster, waiting for her breakfast to be done. She only ate toast in the morning.

"Hello mom." I replied opening the fridge to grab a water. I walked over to the pantry and also got me a granola bar. I quickly ate it.

"So. You ready to move to California?" She asked me excitedly after she hung up the phone.

"Yes! I'm so excited!" I said sarcastically.

"Why don't you want to move honey? It's a new start. I bet you'll like it there and make lots of friends." She told me with a smile while buttering her toast.

"Mom, I have no friends here. Nobody likes me. What makes you think a new place will change that?" I said angrily.

"Don't talk like that Kenny! Maybe if you weren't so "cut off" from everyone, maybe you will have friends!" She yelled back.