What was I made for?

Bliss

I'm an atheist, I don't believe in any gods, angels or even demons, I only believe in scientific facts and such but then one night, something came.

I am Bliss Beatrix Andreada, 23 years of age, all my life I thought that I was living in a perfect world not until I found out that I almost never existed, not that I wanted my life now but it still hurts to know that your parents almost gave you up, not religiously related but I don't like the idea of abortion, no matter what other people says, it's still a living creature and it shouldn't be killed by an  another individual. I don't care whether you have the same opinions with me but those are the things that I'm believing.

LAST NIGHT, I almost committed suicide but a weird turns of events happened to me, a light shine upon me and a silhouette guy was reaching out to my hand, nandon na e pa hulog na ako sa tuloy but then someone saved me, I never saw his image dahil sumakit ang mata ko sa sobrang liwanag, di ko alam kung magpapa salamat ba ako na naligtas niya ako O maiinis ako kasi bat pa ako nabuhay.

Sana pala nuon palang natuloy na ung pagpapalaglag nila sa akin.

Ewan ko, masaya naman ang buhay ko e, almost perfect naman kami, mayaman, kasama ko ang both parents ko although they almost got separated, well because of me, dahil nga di naman nila ginustong mabuhay ako but then wala silang nagawa dahil matindi kapit ko, tignan mo yan until now di ako mamatay matay 23 na ako at graduate na sa course na BS Psychology pero bat ganun di gaya ng iba alam nila ang right path na kukunin na nila, ako hindi, di ko alam kung ano ba dapat kung gawing career. Can you relate with me? Idk but I felt like I was just floating in the air, para bang walang sense ang buhay ko, I felt so useless.

A song came up to my mind, "What was I made for" by Billie Eilish, ano nga ba talaga ang purpose ko sa buhay na ito?

Kung tama nga talaga ang mga Christians na yan, na saan na ung Diyos nila? Sagutin niya kung ano ba purpose ko dito sa mundo?!  After me thinking out loud, that silhouette guy came again and this time he's speaking directly to me.

Wth is this? Is this some sort of a prank? Kung sino man ito please he needs to stop.

"My daughter, stop asking what's your purpose, just do what I asked you to do.. I don't want you to believe in me, but I want you to open your eyes and heart.."

"wait sino ka!"

Before I even chase that guy, he instantly disappear! What in the world is that!

A minute have passed my phone vibrated and when I clicked it I saw a tons of people reaching me online..

"hi kayo po ba ung suicide survivor?"

"Ate, si Jesus po ba talaga ung nag save sainyo"

"Ate, kamusta na po kayo? Bat po kayo magpapa mamatay?"

I ignored all of that messages but only two of that  messages caught my attention, it was from my mom and dad.

"It's not your fault Baby, we are the problems, sorry we messed as parents"

-mom

"Hija, we love you so much"

-dad

5 years later ..

I, Bliss Beatrix Andreada finally became a licensed Psychologist and now I'm helping other people who are struggling with depression, anxiety and people who are attempting to give up themselves..

And It's also my 4th year anniversary of surrendering my life to Our God and Savior Jesus Christ! Thanks God.

That night when I was almost killed myself, siya pala ung silhouette guy, from a suicidal atheist, now I am a loving and joyful Woman of God. And my mo a and Dad nga pala, they will remarry each other, haha alam ko 60s na sila but still in honor of God and because they love me dearly, they planned to marry each other again and this time they will do everything right as much as possible.

I, Bliss Beatrix Andreada, finally found out my purpose and the real reason what was I made for, not only to be a psychologist but also a woman of God and a loving daughter to my parents and before I even forget, I am now have a boyfriend, este fiancé pala, he is Kismet Simon Dominguez, also a suicide survivor and now a Man of faith..

THE END..