THE BLACK DIAMOND

| DOES NOT?

“Hi! Mate!”

I was about to approach them when, he immediately left. passing me by on my side. Without even looked at me. I immediately turned my attention for who was in front of me, who also i considered as my older sister in the athlete academy, THE BLACK DIAMOND’S. Which i’ve attended since i was 9 until now. i’m already 14

I hugged her

“How was it! you’re too pretty... beautiful, I miss you...” she spoke, i kiss her on her cheek.

“I miss you a lot! I think we have a lot to talk about!”

Every summer, i’m still in-in THE BLACK DIAMOND’S. even I’m participating in different activities slash sports at school. I’m competitive. I think.

I have also learned to play football. that’s their passion. Raddle, Draft, also Tame.

*

“Why does it seem like...”

“like What?”

Beverly was sitting on the floor in my room, hugging a pillow. Sleepover. Yup, that’s like how close we are, sometimes she sleeps in our home. Actually we were talking about.. some different things. I’m on my bed, hugging my pillow, the moonlight reflected from the large glass window of my room

“like. He doesn’t want to talk to me or... being like to” I felt upset.

“Who?” she frowned. “Ow...” then she realised, i thought “Is it Draft!?” she was a bit surprised with curiosity.

I widened my eyes, quickly being offensive.

“No..” i shook my head “nope. not Draft.”

she slowly understood. she nod.

“Sorry, I thought. Raddle?” she guesses “hmmm... Federal? Tame?”

I looked at her and met her eyes

“Oh, right.. Tame?! why would he do that—”

I gesture my index finger turn to ‘shh’ as if someone else will heard us.

I shrugged my shoulders

“Don’t know.” [silence moment] “I knew! maybe.... He’s not comf‘table, he’s being annoyed, nor he just doesn’t want it.”

It felt worst. I sighed. She looked at me with sympathy in her eyes, she came closer sitting by my side, immediately to caress my back, comforts me. I tapped her hand, telling her it’s okay. but it’s truly opposite.

*

TAME

I was chatting with Boch, my best friend. who knows about my secret.

“I’m trying to avoid her—”

“Why?”

i heard that soft, sophisticated voice. I knew already who it was. i turned from my back, quickly

I looked behind me then saw Enes. there’s a pause. I don’t know actually what to say. Boch and I was surprised by her presence

“The truth of that was... I have reason.”

she narrowed her eyes, i think i felt what she feels. i really hate it. specially. it’s my fault

She nodded, avoiding my gaze. my concerns reflected on my eyes.

“I Already knew.”

“You know?”

she looked at me, straight in the eye. i’m a bit confused and i’m... surprised

“Yes. I clearly understand. it’s fine, if that’s— the way will make you feel comfortable.”

Then, she turned her back on me and left.

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“I do avoiding it. so it will disappear immediately”

I can’t get it those thoughts out of my mind.

“That’s it. Is it effect?” asked Lian, my also friend.

I thought for a moment.

“no. I like seeing her more—” I stopped “You know I have Fetzy.” my girlfriend.

“That’s why! you have to choose then—”

“I pursue her. (Fetzy) for a long time.” I looked Boch in the eyes, seriously “I can’t stop something between us. just for what i feel..”

“What do you really felt? do you think That feeling’s for Enes are Nothing?"

I frowned again, wondering if that was the case. but i know. it’s not just nothing.