Kanji Magica~ Destined for horribleness

Episode 2

She was explaining something that held importance, but I wasn't paying attention, I was just thinking of the outcomes were if I told Madoka Kaname. The worst that would happen is that we would have to go back in time, again. If she wants her happy ending, then she should leave things alone. She is the reason, that bad stuff happened in each time line. So, I don't see the big deal, plus I am here to help her deal with things, and I am a new element in this world. I have never seen the actual outcome of a fate where Madoka Kaname, ended up a normal kid in the end, she always and forever will be destined to be a magical girl. So, why not push the process.
"Kanji, if you aren't going to listen then go to bed." She seemed to whisper the words, I could barely hear that. A few minutes later I started shaking, and I thought it was just my imagination, so I kept thinking.
"KANJI!", she said, and I could hear her, she was louder than a whisper but quieter than a yell. So I ignored it, getting deeper in my thoughts.
"KANJI?", I was shaking harder, and I blinked at her and asked what.
"Your eyes they were blank and you couldn't hear me, and I thought something was wrong!" She said worried.
"Sorry for scaring you, but I was thinking.."
"Yes."
"I know you said you would never allow that to happen.. But what if?"
"No!"
"But she is destined to become a magical girl, Homura."
"No, I can change it, I could!"
"You can't, she will turn to a magical girl one day."
"No, I can change it."
"Homura, you can't, but you can make it so we survive walpurisnaut's attack, and we can save everyone."
"No..."
"But-"
"I don't want to save everyone, only her!"
"How could I be so foolish, I helped a selfish person, someone who doesn't care about anyone.."
" I.."
I grabbed my bag, and walked to the door, "Goodbye Homura Akemi, for we will be enemies in the future"
"Wait Kanji!"
" If I fall into despair, just know it was not your fault, it was mine for feeling bad for you.." , I say. I transform to a magical girl as I grabbed the door. I walk out, as I slam the door behind me. What did I just say, and why would I do that, she's my friend, but she. She did not care at all, about anyone, except Madoka. Homura... She... She... Is acting different, Sayaka acted different before her soul gem. My soul gem! I look at my soul gem, a bit black, but I had not used my powers, unless traveling back in time. Thinking about my wish, I realized I had the power of time, and I could erase people's memories. I had to get a grief seed, but Homura was my friend, I couldn't leave her. But if mine got worse? No, I sacrificed my life for her. I will never be normal, neither will she. I need to make sure she is safe. I can't let her become a witch, never. That was when I realized, my wish was not for her, not even close. It was for me, only me, I was selfish, so selfish, and I thought I was selfless.
"I'm sorry Homura..", I say, and I run to the door, as I push it open.
"It was falling into it, long ago, no matter how many grief seeds..."
"Homura..."
"Your right, I can't change her destiny, never.."
"Your soul gem!", I yell, rushing to her. It was minutes away to becoming fully tainted, and filled with despair.
"I'm sorry!", I plead, as I hug her.
"It was nice... To think I.."
I hug her as tight as I could, and she seemed lifeless in my arms. I realized I had two options. I could either erase her memory of Madoka, and I could replace her memories with a different wish. Or I could go back in time, and start this over again.