I really thought they where going to be with me forever until I found out they where moving that's when I broke I killed the happy,thoughtful,nice,and caring girl that night when they left they took the innocence I had left with them and this is what I am now nothing every smile every laugh I let out of my body is fake I'm emotionless my friends are all out to get me.and now I cut and I'm depressed everyday and I hate my life.i wish I could a way find out everyday but I'm always caught in the act and it doesn't help my mother abuses me I really just want my life to end 😰 I really hate my life but if I do I would leave so many behind and ever since Sara died I had to be the strong one but I'm tried of being strong I want to be the one to be helped instead of the one saving people.i wish I could feel i really do but I just can't.and the funny thing all those fake smiles and fake laughs. Here and there really make people believe it,but really every night I go home just to destroy my body I'll never be able to wear a decent bathing suit but that's my choice.and I just lost another friend to suicide.its just great my life is wonderful and I bet all you you who are reading this think I'm just a someone looking for attention but really I just want you to know my story.and I need to just release some of my emotions.
