So I went back to Justin.....god I'm such a low life but I love him still no matter how many times he hurts me I'll still love him and I know I could do way better and he could do way worse but fuck I can't get HIM out of my head I think about him 24/7 it drives me insane......how much I think about him and I mean like the song from Adele "I hate to turn up outta the blue uninvited ,but I couldn't stay away ,couldn't fight it, I hope you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over".That what played though my head as I was talking to him and he said I want to fix things. That was it we were back together I don't even know how I could take him back after that turn of events I even apologized for the rude and nasty thing I said and for pushing him away.....god I'm so fucken stupid like what the fuck is wrong with me I took him back after he hurt me like that I shouldn't have taken him back I should have left him to feeling sorry and I would have hoped it would eat him alive just like it did to me..... Any way life have been okay I guess I've started cutting again (T~T ) idk why but I love the feeling of the blade going across my skin I love seeing the blood trickle from the lines I love the pain and agony I put my self through I love it all....
