Pondering Poems

Cool Girl

Running through an empty parking lot
With my hair flowing away like the paper planes I used to chase
When the curb hits me like a cruel epiphany
And I trip over my own words and actions
And the rain hits me with inconceivable force
while salt streams flow over my fair skin
Though I don't anticipate it
It still surprises me how much pain loves brings
All I wanted was to be by your side
But in the end you only saw me in pain and crying
And we may have been hopeless
But in the end I just wanted you to like me
I just didn't want to be an invisible being with a layer of dust
I wanted to be a new shiny jewel everyone yearns for
Yet I should've guessed I wasn't good enough
Not funny enough or pretty enough or cool enough
I was me and nobody wants someone who isn't a cool girl