Her little mistake•C. DINGLE•

05~ Conflicted

Addison knew how she was still unsure on what she was doing about the baby. Part of her wanted to keep it. But the other part of her was thinking what could she offer a baby.

It was so hard and conflicting for her. She felt as though she needed to make her mind up and quick. It was so hard for her. She didn't know what she wanted.

She didn't know if she could even be a mother. She didn't have the best relationship with her own mum growing up. She knew Kim loved her. But it wasn't the same.

Part of Addison wanted her sister. She felt as though Aimee would help her out. She knew she was angry with Aimee for leaving her. But she was more angry that she was dead and she never got to say goodbye.

Addison had been spending a lot of time with Bella. She wanted to know how it felt to have a small human in her life. And she was enjoying it.

She knew that she had been apprehensive over her niece living with her. But she was getting over it. She needed to. She had more important things to think about.

It wasn't going to be easy at all. But she somehow had to do it.

All she knew was that she had to make a life changing decision. And one way or another, it wasn't going to be easy.

When she woke that morning, she saw Kim walking in. "You've got school. Come on," she said.

Addison frowned. "What about Bella? Someone needs to stay with her."

"Will is going to stay with her. She has a bond with him. I'm taking you to school. And we're going to have a talk," Kim told her.

Addison sighed as she looked to her. She just nodded. "I don't feel ready for school. But I guess I have to," she said.

Kim smiled. She looked to her. "I'm proud of you. Bella loves you too. I'm proud of how you've stepped up with her."

"She's my niece. I have to look after her."

***
Addison was getting fed up in school. She didn't want to be there. She wanted to be at home where she felt safe. She hated being at school. It was annoying her.

Addison grabbed her bag and left. She made her way back to home farm. Will looked to her. "Are you meant to be back here?" He asked.

Addison sighed. "I couldn't cope there. It's doing my head in. I don't feel comfortable there," she said as she looked to Bella.

Will nodded. "I'll call your mum and explain if you can sit with Bella?"

"Yeah. Sure. Thanks Will. I appreciate it," Addison said. She knew how she was struggling with the whole being pregnant.

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Kim walked into the house. She saw Addison there and smiled. "I hear you walked out of school. Are you okay?"

Addison shrugged. "I honestly don't know what to do. I feel as though my head is a mess. And I can't decide if I want to keep the baby or not."

Kim smiled as she took her hand. "Whatever you want, I will help you. I promise."

But Addison had no idea what to do. She just felt as though it was all getting too much for her.