heartstopper: nick and charlie one shots

hospital

A/N- i have no clue what a mental hospital is actually like, i am going off of other stories i've read and the little details i do know. please don't come at me for this.

⚠️TW- self harm, mention of eating disorder, attempted suicid, wishing to die, panic attacks

p.s this is a very long story.
and the picture from the comic i used is just what i feel fits the best with what i wrote, i didn't write the story based off the comic piece.

no one's pov-
charlie had been sent to the a mental hospital to help with his health. he been there for two days and he expected to be out sooner rather than later thinking it was nothing. however he had been taken there for a relapse. a bad one. therefore he'd be here a bit longer to watch over him. charlie had passed out from loss of blood and nick and tori found him in the bathroom. he doesn't even remember what happened. it scared nick more then words could describe but he had to stay strong.

charlie's pov-
i woke up with an awful headache and pain on my arms. i look down seeing the red bloody cuts and the confusion hits me. why was i hear? i don't remember relapsing? then a nurse walks in, she's in all white with blue letters above her breast that read "sonomas mental health hospital" i panicked. this must be a dream or well a nightmare. i'll wake up and i'll be next to nick, i know it.

no one's pov-
charlie had a panic attack at the sight of the nurse. it took serval minutes for him to realize it wasn't a dream nor nightmare. it was real. he was here and he had cut himself again. then the thought of nick came to his mind. was he okay? did he know charlie was here? could he see nick?

charlie's pov-
i was informed i did relapse two days ago and was unconscious since then. i wanted to know when and how i got here, but was also scared of the answer. what if nick found me? he knew i have struggled with self harm in the last few years, but i haven't actually hurt myself since nick and i got together. that was 5 months ago. i decided to speak up and ask the nurse.
"ma'am, how did i get here." i choked out tears stained my face from my prior panic attack.

"oh a sweet boy with ginger hair carried you in and a shorter girl dark dark hair. i think his name was nicholas nelson, he claimed to be your boyfriend."

a flood of emotion hit me. nick. he found me and had to take me here. my breathing became increasingly faster i felt it but i couldn't stop. my last memory was being at nicks and tori was coming to pick me up. shit. my breath became sharper and shaky now. i was sweating and my head pounded. god why couldn't i just be normal.
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nick's pov-
i'm worried. it has been two days since i had to take my boyfriend to the mental hospital! god how i be so dumb. i could tell something was bothering him when he checked instagram, but i didn't push him to tell me. then i decided to pee like an idiot and he relapsed when i was gone. i don't even know what happened, it must have been something really bad probably involving ben. he's the reason charlie ever cut himself in the first place. ugh i hate that son of a bitch!

i just hope charlie's okay. i miss him. i want to hold his hand through all of this. i want to kiss him and be by his side as he struggles, so we can do it together. we do everything together. i want to spend fiver with him. and it may sound weird as we're just teens in a high school relationship. but i love him. and i want to always be there for him. instead i'm just curled up in bed unable to even see him because of the rules the hospital has. please let him be okay.
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no one's pov-
charlie has fallen asleep after his panic attack ended. he was extremely upset and exhausted from the past few days, still unable to recall the situation. when he woke he was even more upset but now with himself.

charlie's pov-
i'm so stupid. why did i do this. what made me do this. think, think, think! it took me some time but i remembered. ben. he dm-ed me, he had commented on my story where i posted pictures of me and nick kissing for our 5 month. he told me to kill myself cause i'm a disgusting little f@g. god why. i literally tried to do it. i'm so dumb.