"I'm standing still on this hidden hill, and I'm looking around for the right way down, to your distant valley, your flowers grow, in the frozen snow and I'd like to know is it all a show, are you really happy?" -"She's 22",Troye Sivan
A/N: All chapters will be in Troye's POV unless stated otherwise.
"What are you saying?" Connor asked frantically. I sighed nervously and began fidgeting with my hands. I'd just informed Connor that we may have to cancel our summer plans. Well at least I did. A couple of months ago I received an email from this record label saying that they wanted to speak with me. Long story short, they had seen my covers and they wanted me to produce an album. The only issue is that I would have to devote my entire summer to writing and recording these songs. I'd be in the studio practically every week.
"I'm saying, I need the whole summer to work on this album." I stated as calmly as I could. The look on Connor's face was enough to make anyone break down into tears. With that, I kept my gaze on the floor.
"W-what about out trip to see my parents?"
"I- I can't go Con." I heard a faint whimper and immediately went to comfort him. Connor never cried. He may get a bit teary-eyed, but I've never seen Connor full on cry like he was now. I rubbed small circles into his back.
"How long have you know?" Connor asked, slightly pulling away from me. I let out a shaky breath beforeI responded.
"Two months."
"TWO MONTHS!" Connor shouted and I flinched. His lips were pressed together in tights line. I hated when Connor got mad like this. He knows I hate being yelled at.
"Con, please calm down." I whispered.
"No! Don't tell me to calm down Troye. You knew about this for two whole months and you didn't tell me!" He screamed.
"I- I'm sorry." I whimpered. I could feel the tears beginning to form. Awesome.
"Why? Why'd you wait so long?" He asked, his voice slightly calm.
" I-I don't know Con, you- you were just so busy and I was too."
"Oh that's bullshit Troye! You could have told me!" Connor shouted. I could feel the hot tears running quickly down my cheeks.
"C-Con please s-stop yelling." I cried, while holding my head between my hands.
"I'm mad Troye, do I not have the right to be upset?" He asked. When I didn't answer, Connor began to pace back and forth. I began to tug at my hair. I really didn't like being yelled at, and Connor knows that. He does it anyway though. However it's never been this bad before.
"Troye," Connor spoke calmly. He'd stop pacing and was now standing directly in front of me.
"Troye I need you to choose. It's either me, or the music." I felt all of the blood drain from my face.
"Are you serious?" I questioned, looking up at him.
"YES! Why wouldn't I?! Troye I love yo-"
"No!" I yelled, which was rare.
" if you really loved me you wouldn't be making me choose! You know how long I've waited for and you trying to make me give it up? How dare you?" I looked at him like he was mad. This was my dream and he knew that.
"If that's what you want, then get out." Connor whispered as he plopped down on the bed. I didn't respond. I just looked at him. Maybe he'd apologize. Maybe he'd start laughing and tell me he was joking. He didn't though. He did none of those things. Connor was dead serious. He really wanted me to leave. I got up and grabbed my bag with my laptop and phone. I kissed Connor on the head,
"Bye Con," I mumbled, walking out if the room. I grabbed my keys from the bowl and left the apartment. I don't love Connor. I felt like I could have eventually, but I wasn't at that level with him yet. Now, I never will be. His love wasn't the most important thing on my mind at the moment. Maybe it's selfish, but I don't believe so. If he really loved me, then he wouldn't have let me walk away. If he really loved me, he wouldn't have made me choose. If he really loved me, he would have been proud. He would have been happy for me. That's what I needed. Someone to be happy and support me. Unfortunately, that someone is not Connor Franta.
A/N: Soooooo, how was it??!!!
Also, my apologies if there are typos, it's hella late. I hope yall loved this first chapter.
Title Cred: The Summer- Citizen
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