Four Letter Words (Troyler)AU

Bite My Tongue

"Don't makes me sad, don't make me cry. Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don't know why."
-Lana Del Rey "Born to Die"

There was a faint ringing sound. I tried to ignore it, hoping to return to my peaceful sleeping state. The ringing had stopped, but not for long. I groaned and stuck my hand out to feel for my phone. My eyes quickly opened when I did not feel the mattress but carpet? I sat up, rubbing my eyes attempting to get a clear view of my surroundings. Sure enough, I was on the floor and Tyler was stretched out wildly on the bed. I spotted my phone near the door, how it got over there? I have no idea. I crawled over to it, walking was entirely to much work. I rested my back against the wall and picked up the now ringing phone.

"Hello" I answered, not bothering to look at the called ID.

"Um..hey.." I felt my heart rate speed up and not in a good way. Now I kinda wished I'd looked at the caller ID. It was Connor.

"Look...,I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk to but Troye I love you and," he stopped talking when I began to laugh and I mean really laughing. I was cackling like a madman, because what he's saying is complete bullshit.

"What's funny?" He questioned, slightly annoyed that I had interrupted him with my laughter.

"You. You said you loved me. Someone who loves me wouldn't do what you did!" I was yelling now. I nervously looked up at Tyler, who I no doubt had just woken up. He rolled over and groaned loudly.

"What was that?"

"Tyler." I whispered, picking at the carpet.

I heard Conner scoff on the other end,

"Why are you with him?" He was always jealous of Tyler and I's relationship ever since he walked in on us cuddling.

"Why does it matter?" I sassed.

"Look, I didn't call to argue. I," I cut him off, I didn't want to talk anymore.

"Then why did you?"  I looked over at Tyler, who was now fully awake.

"Who is that?" He whispered.

"Conner." I mouthed. He frowned and nodded. He got up and came to sit next to me.

"If YOU'D LET ME SPEAK!" Connor yelled and I jumped. I felt Tyler's hand slip into mine and I gripped it tightly.  Connor sighed,

"I called you because I want you to come back. You need to come home." I looked at Tyler and he shook his head no, clearly hearing what Connor said.

"You're not going back there, you're staying here with me." He whispered and I nodded.

"Troye?" Connor spoke, questioning if I was still there.

"Um, I-I'm sorry Con, I can't." I stuttered.

"What do you mean you can't?!"

"I'm uh.. Staying with Tyler now." I heard the phone click, signaling that he had hung up. I let out a shakey breath, running my hand through my hair.

"Oh Ty, you don't have to worry about me staying here.." I said after a while. He looked at me immediately,

"What?!" He yelled, his sudden anger etched into him small face. I flinched away from him, removing my hand from his. I looked down,

" I-I-I was just saying that.. Uh.. You don't have to worry about me staying here. I can't just get a hotel or something.."

"Troye." Tyler called in a serious tone. I arched an eyebrow, but didn't look at him.

"Troye Sivan." He called again. His voice kind of weird. It almost sounded like he was crying? All of a sudden I was being pulled from my spot onto Tyler's lap. Wow, I didn't know he had it in him. I laughed a little to myself.

"I'm not that weak." He mumbled. My eyes widened. Shit, he'd heard that.

"Yeah, he did." I went to glare at him, but froze when I saw the look on his face. He wasn't wearing his glasses, so you could really see his eyes. They were blue but lighter than mine and also slightly red. I know that it wasn't because he was tired. He always slept better when I was here. He told me that himself. They were red like he had been crying or like he was on the verge of doing so.

"Tilly, w-what's happened? Did, I-I do something?" I asked, my voice shaky.  I hated seeing Tyler sad especially if it was potentially my fault.

"I hate that he treats that way. You don't deserve it. Also I don't want you to to leave. I want you to stay here and-" I cut in,

"Ty.."

"I don't like being here by myself all the time, and I like cuddling with you."

"Tyler!" I tried to stop his rambling but he wasn't listening. I did the only thing that I could think of. I grabbed his face and kissed him. He relaxed instantly, as I believed he would. After a few seconds we parted.

"Better?" I questioned, tilting my head to the side. He smiled a little and nodded. I positioned my body to where I was straddling him. I buried my face in his neck and I felt his arms wrap around my waist.  My phone began to ring and I jumped. I felt Tyler's grip on me tighten. I hesitantly grabbed it, making sure to check who it was. I think Tyler and I both thought it would be Connor again but it wasn't. It was my manager. I let out a breath that I didn't know I was keeping in and answered.

"Hello..yea..I'm on the way.. Yes bye."  I ended the call and looked at Tyler.

"Hey, do you want to come to the studio with me?" I asked as confidently as I could. I never let anyone come with me. I'm shocked I even asked and by the look on Tyler's face, he is too.

"Um..Okay." He whispered and gave me a peck on the lips.

A/N:: ALRIGHT HERE IT IS!!
Finally lol. I'm sorry, I have been a very busy boy but it's up. I hope you enjoyed this. My apologies if it isn't very long.

Title Cred: Bite My Tongue by You Me at Six ft Oliver Sykes

See ya later alligator 🐊

-Alx