Love Alike

Admit

I don't think I like you. I fear what I hold out for you is worse. Since the day this has started, it was never the simple attraction I had for your body or your face. It was how you assured me it was okay when I clumsily caused all your books to fall out of your hands. Other people would sigh out of annoyance or rant to the person, who'd knocked into them for scattering their books onto the ground, but because you were kind to me, I am grateful and since that day, you've taken up all space in my head.

Somedays, when you are standing in my sight and you don't notice me, I watch you smile and pretend that smile was meant for me. The moments I catch you laughing are the memories I make sure to remember because if you don't notice, your laugh does not come around as often as it should. It is rare and when I catch you giggling, I can't help the love -- I have for you -- from growing so much more...

So I am scared. I am nervous and I don't know whether this love I have for you, is even genuine yet. I am unsure still, considering all these years I have endured just your presence from a distance, because of what I have just said to myself. I didn't think it was possible for someone to fall completely in love, with love, with a stranger like Mei. She was a stranger, from the moment I laid eyes on her, and to this day, when I've finally admitted to myself that I am in love with the very being of her. She is a stranger and I am okay that she is.

To you, I must be a stranger, too, as you are to me. Maybe unlike I, you must not care for me as I do you...Though there never existed a single moment, in record, I have heard your voice or felt your hands, I realise now how much I love you. While you remain as the main character of my novel, I must only be a passing character in yours. In my head, while you are my entire galaxy, I must only be a single shining star in your globe of a hundred galaxies.

So I will take complete responsibility for my pain. If you reject my love, I can do nothing but to accept your answer and to understand you. I don't want to burden you with the feelings I have for yoj, because who would ever have the strength to carry the love I have for you?

In advance, if you break my heart, I would like to tell you that I understand you. If you find me unacceptable or strange for confessing my love to you, I understand you. If you don't like the way I dress or simply the way I look, I understand you, because who would love back a stranger? So in advance, if you break my heart, I would like to tell you that I will still love you even after.

(Ended in Lay's perspective.)