you can rest now darling( good sam fanfic)

pregnancy pains

The next morning after that night was surreal as hell, I woke up inside a warm bed with warm air surrounding me and for the first time in my life I didn't wake up feeling terrified or confused, I woke up feeling grateful and happy, there was something about that word, happy, it was something I couldn't grasp right away but I knew how to later on. I just layed in bed for a while staring at the ceiling which was a basic cream color, normally those types of lifeless colors depressed me but this time they made me feel at ease, something about the way Sam customized her house made it feel super homey, I had my hand rested on my stomach and I remember feeling so grateful that Sam heard my baby's heartbeat and that it was actually still alive, I was enjoying the quiet of the room when i heard knocking at the door, it startled me so I jolted in my spot with the knocks.

"Oh sorry honey didn't mean to scare you, it's time for me to head to work but I'm still taking you with so I can run some tests and do a checkup on you, i have some clothes for you to wear if you would like." She said sitting on the edge of the bed handing me some clothes, they felt warm and heavy unlike my cheap thin hoodie I had on the night before.

"Ok, il get ready." I said, I took off my shirt sam gave me to sleep in and I was met with the sight of bruises scattered all over me like spatters on a canvas, normally they made me feel awful about myself and made me think I let it happen to me and I deserved them, but this time i didn't feel that, this time i knew that they would heal and they would just be yellow marks and nothing more in time, much like when stains get on your favorite clothes, they stand out at first but over time they fade and become part of the shirt. I slipped on the sweater and the sweatpants and they were so comfortable I felt like I was lying back in bed, I finished getting dressed and then we were off to the hospital, I never liked hospitals for as long as I could remember so the drive there gave me major anxiety, I think Sam noticed me stressing out cause I could feel Sam take my hand as she parked the car.

"Are you nervous honey?" She said softly, I nodded my head yes.

"The hospital is a place where people get bad news sometimes, but its also a place where people come to get better, your here because I wanna make sure that you and your baby are healthy and doing alright, it's ok honey you'll be alright." She said as she opened the car door and guided me out.

we walked to the entrance of the hospital and the whole time Sam held my hand with gentle grace, I felt so disconnected with everything else as we walked mainly due to me still trying to process everything that happened the night before, I had been taken in by this stunningly kind woman who could've walked right past me just like everyone else but didn't. We made it inside and immediately I was met with the smell of medicine and cleaning supplies and it made me feel uneasy as I breathed it in, I tried doing everything I could to make myself small but I think Sam noticed because I felt her pull me closer to her.

"Alright well here we are, this is my office." She said as she unlocked the door, when she opened that door I was met with the sight of the most homey office I've ever seen, most offices ive been in belonged to either a police officer or a DCFS worker but this time I felt so at home in a place that I despised.

"Alright well I'm gonna go look for some equipment so I can do a check up on you, I figured you would like to have that done in here since it's private." She said as she rubbed my back, I felt comforted when she did that, hell I felt comforted by everything she did.

"Yeah it's nice and comfy in here." I said quietly.

"Alright well I'll be right back, don't go anywhere alright." She said as she turned to leave.

"I never wanna go anywhere else again anyways." I thought to myself, as I sat on the couch I looked around at the different displays she had around the office, what caught my attention the most though was the beautiful piano that sat in the corner, growing up I had always found comfort in music and any time i was within arms reach of an instrument i grabbed it and played it, i never knew how to read notes so most of what i did was copy things i heard on the radio or around the streets, i especially loved the piano, it's ambiance, it's elegance, it's grace, all of it captivated my mind. I made my way over to it and I traced my fingers over the cold keys creating a rising sound, I grew excited and I wanted to play some more, I remembered a piano song I heard once before that embedded itself into my mind, so i began to play, it was victors piano solo from the movie the corpse bride, it was a beautiful piece that from the moment i listened to it i fell in love, i fingers glided across the keys and i could only drown in the ocean of sounds further the more i played, I felt so comfortable in my bubble I didn't even notice Sam hovering in the doorway.