Just Anything

005

IT'S FINALLY PUBLISHED FOR YOU GUYS (poowywboscuit), WHO WERE EXTREMELY IMPATIENT WHEN WAITING FOR THE PROPER PUBLISH DATE. DON'T EXPECT MUCH FROM THIS AS I GOT WRITERS BLOCK LIKE 400 WORDS IN BECAUSE I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO CONTINUE WRITING FOR THIS SPECIFIC DAY, SO PLEASE ENJOY 💀.

No TWs I don't think if so then sad tw ig.

LUCY'S POV:

July 14 was the day I argued with my closest best friend Jenny.

It marked a slightly significant turning point in my relationship with my closest best friend, Jenny. It all began with a simple request — inviting her to join our group call that included 'M' so we could talk, play games, and maybe even watch a movie. Little did I know that this seemingly innocuous situation would escalate into an argument. I never intended for things to go in that direction. The last thing I wanted was to clash with Jenny. The mere thought of arguing with her pained me tenfold, as I knew it likely caused her distress too. But sometimes, it feels like I have no control over the words that spill out of my mouth. The impulse to argue seems involuntary, driven by emotions that surge before I can even process them.

I truly make an effort not to argue with anyone, I promise! I genuinely try my best, but there are moments when I can't seem to help myself. It's puzzling – this urge to engage in conflict seems almost involuntary. Like a ticking time bomb, waiting to explode at anyone, regardless of whether they've been unkind to me first. When it does happen, they'll be met with the fiery wrath of my anger.

In truth, I value our friendship dearly. The thought of hurting my Jenny goes against everything I stand for. Yet, there are moments when the urge to argue takes over, despite my best intentions. It's a battle within myself, a struggle to align my feelings with my actions.

On that particular day, as the argument unfurled, I found myself ensnared in a conflict I had never intended to engage in. It served as a stark reminder that even the most unbreakable bonds can be tested by misunderstandings and emotions beyond our immediate control. These factors can lead us to act irrationally, as if some external force is compelling us, like an entity possessing us and driving us to behave in ways that are entirely out of character.

As a result of the altercation, Jenny blocked me for the rest of the day. Yet, I was quick to realize my mistake and extended a heartfelt apology the following day. We eventually reconciled, providing us both an outlet to release pent-up frustration and regain our composure.

We engaged in conversations, indulged in games, and even initiated group calls involving M. These sessions persisted until we parted, each of us exiting for various reasons. Jenny, for instance, would retreat around 11-12, unless M was present, an exception that occasionally stirs a pang of jealousy within me. For myself, I'd remain for a few hours before departing either due to fatigue or other non-call commitments. This often left M in the call, at times oblivious to my departure, occasionally lingering until the automated disconnection notice prompted him to exit, thereby repeating this pattern throughout the ensuing weeks.

I enjoy conversing and participating in calls within our group chat; it brings happiness and fun. However, things take a downturn when arguments arise. Disagreements lead to a less enjoyable atmosphere, causing everyone to feel upset and engage in conflict, an outcome nobody desires.

Despite this, the cycle of arguments continues until a hiatus from the group chat occurs. During these periods, M's activities become a mystery, while Jenny and I continue our routine of gaming and conversation. Eventually, Jenny proposes, 'Should we call the group and play this game with M? I think he would like it.' I often find myself agreeing, and the outcome generally falls into three scenarios: M declining the call with an 'leave me alone,' not answering at all, or us engaging in gaming together.

Each outcome carries an equal probability, yet the first and third options emerge most frequently.

Nowadays, our conversations have dwindled, leaving only Jenny and me engaged in discussions while M pursues his own activities. At times, we reminisce about how things used to be, longing for the normalcy that has evolved over time. Change is inevitable—people change, places change, and the world evolves.

The future remains uncertain, and we can never truly predict what it holds until it unfolds before us.

Sleepiness is beginning to overtake me, I'll bring this musing to a close. To those who've listened, I hope my thoughts resonated in some way. Perhaps it's my version of a story from the Ninjago universe from Cloud Kingdom that are making me say all of these things as they continue to write my future, though I doubt it. It's time for me to rest now. Goodnight!

END OF 005

Yeah that's it I hope you guys enjoyed it as some of you guys were very very eager to read this trash. 

Ok bye now -jisoomyd4rling

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