Our Little Secret ~ Phan

The shade of your eyes is better than the mud

A/N - Hey guys! So sorry this is a bit of a crappy chapter, I apologise! I will try make them longer, I just was busy over the weekend :3 please leave feedback, comment, vote etc etc :D and yeah hopefully I'll be updating soon!  P.s sorry again for spelling errors if there is some hah! Bye - Linda 

I was pretty nervous about what would happen, but it was so spontaneous. Luckily, he held my hand back. Neither of us spoke a word, but our hands were interlocked as we were smiling into each other’s eyes. No words were even needed if I was honest. This moment was so perfect, so bliss. I had to remind myself I wasn’t dreaming, and although my heart was beating so fast I was so relaxed. Our hands slowly pulled away from one another’s, our eye contact extended for a while longer before he looked away, smiling at the ground.

“Phil... I want to be here for you, I want to be here with you” he shyly said

I felt warm inside, for the first time in forever. I put my hands on his shoulders as I twisted him around. He was still looking at the ground smiling and blushing slightly. I placed my gentle hand on his chin and slowly lifted his head up

“You have no idea how amazing you are Dan, I have known you for no longer than a day and, you already mean so much to me”.

His chocolate brown eyes fluttered as he blushed again, before he gave me a small kiss on the cheek

“I think we are going to be really good friends” he whispered, before pulling away from my face, and smiling as we stared into each other’s eyes, and before I could think any differently, I gave a peck on the lips. He giggled as he looked down again

“Oh Dan, you keep looking to that muddy floor, I prefer to look at the shades of brown in your eyes, they are beautiful”

He slowly lifted his head up, and placed his hand on my jaw, and before I knew it he had his lips on mine. I said all the pain went as we hugged, well, now I know it’d had all gone. It wasn’t anything dramatic; it was just a small, peaceful kiss that meant so much. I wasn’t sure how long it lasted, but I was in heaven the whole time. Our hands were just lightly on each other’s faces, supporting the kiss. The kiss broke, but our faces remained close, still with our hands on. Our noses touched for a short while before we heard a noise in the distant. It sounded like motorbikes, but whatever it was, it was coming this way. His hands dropped to my shoulders, as I jerked away, but I completely froze, stood in an awkward, cold position, my hands by my side. The motorbikes got closer before we saw them on the land just above us, darting through the trees.

“Dan, t-t-they bully me at school” I stuttered

He had nothing to say but I saw sorrow in his eyes, my heart raced fast as my mind spun round. The loud noise stopped, but then was followed by footsteps. I hoped and prayed they didn’t see us, but how lucky would I be if that happened. Dan knew, so he took his hands off my shoulders and stood just as blank as I did. I stepped away from him a bit as I saw 6 boys walking to us. Do I run? No, of course I don’t. They’ll just find me again.

“Hey look, I found two gay boys!” one of them shouted, as the others followed him and laughed

“This your new bum buddy?”

All I heard was insults, and people laughing, followed by more insults. The biggest one out of them all pushed me to the ground, to the mud. For a moment my face was pressed to the mud, before I slowly turned around to face upwards again, scared to death. I looked up terrified to see if Dan was okay, and he wasn’t there. I looked behind me and saw him running. The boys laughed and nudged each other as my eyes started to water on the floor

“Looks like your bum buddy is off to bum another boy, are you jealous Phillip?”

I didn’t respond, as I lay perfectly still, trying not to cry in front of them, but before they went I had a few kicks in my side, followed by insults, and as they left they each kicked mud at me, while I was cowering on the floor. My ribs hurt like hell, and my arm was full of dirt and bruises from where they had pushed me. Then it occurred to me, Dan run away. He said he’d support me, he said he’d be there? He knew those bullies were out to hurt me. I started to cry just thinking how he’d left before the worst had begun. Why didn’t he save me? Did that kiss mean nothing to him?

I made my way home, picking off try mud as I walked along the pavement, just hours ago me and Dan walked along. Dan. I kept thinking of our hands being locked, and the bliss moment we kissed for the first time, and the tears formed in my eyes once again.

“Phil! Thank god you’re okay!” I heard from across the street.

It was Dan. My eyes welled up even more and by the time he’d got across the street I was crying rivers. We didn’t speak for a moment, I was stood there crying into my hands and he had his hands on my shoulder

“Look I... I”

“You didn’t w-w-what Dan?” I said as I showed him the big cut on my arm from where I fell. He could see the bruises showing up too.

“They did this to me, Dan”

“Oh god Phil I’m so so sorry I was just so scared” I could hear in his voice he was beginning to cry.

I looked up and saw a tear roll down his cheek.

“You said you’d be here for me Dan, and that’s just the start of it. They do worse” I mumbled, as I sniffled and wiped away the tears. He pulled me into a hug

“I promise. I can’t fight them off Phil, I can’t” He said still leaning his head on my shoulder as we hugged.

“But I will be your support, I promise, I’m so sorry”

We walked home side by side, and didn’t say much when we left each other, expect we hugged silently for while before waving. Will he keep his promise and defend me, I thought. I can’t rely on a person who will leave me for the worse, and even worse than that, I think I was falling for him, I was falling in love.