3am

2

"Pack your bags, your going." Mrs felix shouts

Wait? What? I'm out! Finally.

I grab my 3 books and my worn out clothes and pack them in my back pack, I knew I would be back very soon but I didn't object to leave.

I walked out my room and down the creaky wooden stairs, I could almost smell the felling of loneliness all over again.

I stepped into the darkness, the time was about 6:30pm which meant I had to walk home, it didn't bother me but I knew the short walk would be too long.

The road I stepped on was busy, full of cars, people with perfect lives, it was fair to say I would never be like that.

Why am I here? why can't I just be dead? Is this what my purpose in life is?

I knew this is what it's going to be like from now on. I was going to try and commit Suicide then I would be back in the hospital centre in no time.

I automatically stopped when I saw a park full of little kids playing, I was never going to go in it so why did I find it fascinating? Was it because all the little kids had perfect lives? Was it because I've always wanted to be happy? I just don't know what it was but I just amazed me.

My thoughts were distracted by a beep, it was far too loud, but I realise I was in the middle of the road, no I wasn't scared, fear is just in your imagination and I was never afraid to die

The pain finally jolted in me and I screamed, my life flashed before my eyes and I knew this wasn't the end.

My eyes flicked as I felt wet patches everywhere and my aching bones starting to swell up and turn purple. sirens screamed and small talk between people is other cars was heard as I saw the flickering of the lights under my closed eye.

The breeze scrunched my bones in half and I felt the existence of people beside me.

It was not long before I felt needles jab into me and people prodding at me.

Fudge cakes I lost 3000 words here and it's 4 am so I'm tired... Sorry for the crappyness!!!

My eyes flew open then closed again, a gas mask was placed over my head and my eyes slowly drifted off

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The air around my lungs was tight making it harder to breath, pain erupted through my chest and my legs went numb. I was in my own little bubble, drifting away from the pain and misery. A noisy beeping irritated me pulling me out of my trance and into real life. What is going to happen to me? What is this? Life itself made me feel like shit and now after this I will probably die from no one paying my hospital bills or starvation.

Slowly I tried to adjust my closed eyes to the darkness of my eyelids which became too uncomfortable, I slowly began to flutter my eyes open and I felt like it took weeks to look around and adjust.

My thoughts glided away to what actually happened, did I try and kill myself? Was it an accident? I hope it was an accident because I can't deal with going straight back to the prison like hospital.

"Beep! Beep! Beep!" Was all I could hear as I looked around.

My neck was stiff and it felt like I had been sleeping on a bed of nails. i just hope life itself would end for me I could never forget the many times I've tried to break free but they will always haunt me when I am sleep deprived.

"She's awake!" Someone exclaimed making me jump.

Random people gathered around me, doctors tried checking my blood pressure, temperature and even tried a blood test. tears made themselves down my cheeks as I couldn't deal with the feeling of claustrophobia.