3am

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I guess this was fate that I was alive a breathing but some could think otherwise. In my own little space I was going crazy, half awake and half asleep. I knew it was the drugs making me do crazy things or think of crazy things and I couldn't control myself, I wanted control of myself yet I couldn't just be me. I thought of the most pleasant things but all it turned out to be was sorrow endings and how everything dies with no happiness. Voices usually messed with my head whilst I was alone or passed out from a drug overdose so it didn't faze me when I heard voices, they were strong but nothing could faze me right now since I'm in this state of mind and place. The beeping sound agitated me once again and i couldn't help but feel distressed even more. A bright light shone through my eyes and i was blinded by the darkness of the light.

"Mia? Mia are you okay? you've been sleeping for over 24 hours." a voice echoed.

I started to pry my eyes open and look around. A nurse hovered over me checking my eyes and ears, it was very uncomfortable but i couldn't do anything about it.

"Mr Horan wants to talk to you Mia, is that okay?" i nodded but still didn't have a clue who 'Mr Horan' was.

Income the man who i saw when i first woke up, i still don't know why he's bothering to visit me unless he wants something.

"Mia, i couldn't find your mum or dad so i need to find someone who's related to you over 18, do you know who i could find?' he asked, almost waiting for an instant reply.

"No, i don't know anyone, i was left with my mum and she's gone wherever she can find free drugs and alcohol." i croaked

Mr Horan seemed surprised at my answer but slowly nodded.

"Im really sorry about hitting you again Mia I promise that i wouldn't do it on purpose and i really hope that you won't tell anyone, meaning the police so i don't get put in jail or so the press don't hear, is that okay?"

i nodded not really caring what he was saying but the i realised...

"press?" i questioned.

"do you not know who i am?"

i didn't one bit, why should i know who he is.

"Niall, from one direction, the irish one, blonde one, part of the most popular boy band." he spoke yet i had no clue who he is still.

i shook my head and he nodded understanding i had no clue who he was.

"is it okay if my friend could come in to talk to you?"

i shrugged not caring, its probably his management coming in and trying to blame me or something, still i had no clue who he was but i was imagining him seeing me for him hitting me with his car, i swear i overthink.

he nodded and picked up his phone.

"Liam you can come up but she's really bad, she doesn't know who i am."

"but we're famous and everyone knows us."

"what if she's got amnesia?"

"okay she you soon Liam."

As Niall put the phone down Liam came in and looked at me making me uncomfortable.

"oh shit!" Liam spoke but put his hand around his mouth.

'You're on your own Niall, I'm not going to cover up a lie for you, she looks like a pile of broken bones, look at the bruises on her pale skin, she looks like she's going to brake if you touch her."

"Liam you're making me feel even more guilty, i promise i didn't mean to and plus she said she won't make a complaint,"

"Niall thats still not the point, you need to be more careful, if the word gets out you won't hear the end of it from management and whats going to happen to her if you can't find her mum or dad, what if she has to go up for adoption, thats one of the worst case scenarios, 'just been hit with care now she has to move away from everyone she loves or knows into a place filled with parentless children, imagine the sorrow in a place like that."

"oh, ummm I'm going to pay for her hospital bills."

"Niall i don't think thats going to fix her mentally."

The room went quiet and I just laid their awkwardly as my back ached and i was in pain yet i couldn't show it in front of these strangers.

"have they done x-rays yet?" Liam spoke braking the thick ice.

"yeah but the results are a bit unclear, and she might have a fractured skull."

"How hard did you hit her Niall?'

"I really don't know, she went down with a bang though."

a nurse came through the door with a trolly of food which had a disgusting smell.

"Mia, you haven't eaten in 72 hours so i guessed you were hungry so i brought you some food." she placed a plate of spaghetti with green sauce on top of it in front of me and a mushy yoghurt then left.

I picked up a fork and twiddled the fork so i could get some spaghetti on it then went to put it in my mouth, i threw the fork down and started gaging at the smell.

"I think I'm going to be sick, this smells disgusting."

" I second that." Niall said

"I think there is a cafe down stairs if you want something to eat." Liam generously offered.

I shook my head since the feeling of hunger passed.

the room fell silent again but i couldn't help but try and stretch, yet i failed and pushed my covers off me onto Liam, i looked up to him quickly and he smiled.

"Are you hot or something?" he chuckled.

i shook my head and he passed the covers to me.

"Mia what are those." he said pointing to my scars on my arm.

i tried to cover them immediately but i knew i was going to have to tell him or make up an excuse.

"mia?" Niall questioned.

"ummmm..... i.. ummm... when i was.... ummm." i tried to drag it on.