Fear

Ch. 3

As I walked passed the doors i was greeted by a bunch of loud noises. I was alright with it though, since I'm pretty loud myself sometimes. I walked over to my locker to see a note sticking out. I grabbed the note and read it.

'Hey Maria I'm tired of you being so feisty. You know we can't do anything at school because of Lisa but don't worry babe i'm free tonight ;) - Alex' I turned around and I spotted him and Lisa snogging. He quickly stole a glance at me then winked. I honestly was about to puke right then and there. I ripped the note and threw it in the trash. I grabbed my books and headed to advisory. I quickly met up with my group of friends;

Emma: Short wavy brown hair with black eyes and she's pretty short.

Rosie: Tall blonde layered hair with big blue eyes.

Lucy: Short with ombre hair black into blue. And big brown eyes

Will: Tall grey eyes with a short black quiff

Andy: Short with green/blue big eyes and light brown buzz cut

I smiled as I saw my group of friends but it faded when I saw Iza walking up to Lucy. Lucy was really good friends with Iza yet Iza HATES me. I don't know what I did to her that she hates me with so much strength. She has made up rumours about me and practically drove Lucy into making fun of my weight in middle school.

"Vas happenin peasants!" I said trying to fake a smile.

"Hello my potatoe." Rosie greeted back.

"Soo..watcha doin?" It was akward since none of us really liked Iza for her way of being.

"What's up with the shirt Maria? Are you trying to get rid of your muffin top by wearing big tops?" Anger boiled through my body but also hurt. I wanted to cry. Did I really look bad with this shirt?

"Why? You don't like it?"

"No I don't your hips look wide and your face rounded."

"Well too bad honey because she doesnt wake up every morning to impress you" Emma snapped. She was alsways the one to step out for me when i got bullied.

"Iza, I think it's better for you to go" Iza just stared at me and turned around whipping her hair in Andy's face.

"You should try getting a haircut! It'll work better for you!" He shouted. We all giggled as she turned around and almost bumped into a locker. I burst out laughing but Lucy turned around and gave us a death glare.

"What? She was the one who started it" I said in defense. She just sighed and leaned on the wall. I knew something was up. But it wasn't the time to ask her. Before any of us could speake the bell rang and we had to go to advisory. We said our goodbye's and headed to class. Once I got in and walked to my seat I felt someone lightly smack my butt. When I turned around to slap him, I was shocked when I saw him holding his head whimpering in pain. 'That was wierd' I walked to my seat and took my phone out. Before I could turn it on I saw my reflection on the screen. My face DID look more rounded and my cheeks looked chubby. I quickly raised my hand up in the air.

"Yes Ms.Cruz?"

"Uhm..may I go to the restroom?" She nodded and I quickly got out my seat and practically jogged to the bathroom. As soon as I got in, I locked myself out in a stall and sobbed my eyes out. Why did this have to happen to me? What did I do so Iza could hate me so much? I got out a bobby pin and ripped the balled tip off. Great, it was really sharp. I lifted up my shirt and cut my stomach. I cried more of the pain but maybe this scar would help me remember to lose weight. I grabbed a piece of toilet paper and held it on my wound until it stopped bleeding. I cried until I felt no more tears could come out. As soon as the bleeding stopped I threw the paper away and walked to the sink which had a spot of blood on my finger. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was a mess. My eyeliner and mascare were smeared and I looked fat. I quickly re-did my make-up and started to walk out the bathroom but I heard footsteps outside. Before I could walk out I went dizzy and something unexpected happened.

'Don't go outside' What the hell?! Why was a voice talking in my mind?

'Hide in a stall. Stand on the toilet.' What in the world..

'Go. Or else he'll get you' Before I could talk or do anything else I felt scared and ran into a stall and sat on the toilet with my knees up to my chest. Then I heard the door opening and a few steps. I breathed but I think it was a little to loud. But I mean come on some voice just told me to hide and now I'm alone in a bathroom with who knows!

'Be quite' The voice spoke again. Okay this shit was creeping me out.

"Well no fun for me today there's no girls around" What the fuck?! I recognized that voice! It's the janitor. I heard him talking to Mrs.Lee outside the office once. But what did he min no fu- oh crap. He's a rapist! My eyes went wide and I cried softly begging for him to leave. After I heard the door closing I was shocked and didn't want to move. What if he was waiting for me outside and raped me?

'It's safe. Run to class'

'Who are you?' I tried to listen for an answer but none came. I don't know why but I obeyed him and ran out the bathroom but started walking while I got closer to my classroom. I went in and everyone was staring at me but soon turned their attention to the teacher.

"Why did you take so long?"

"Uhm..girl problems?" It sounded more like a question but it was the only thing I thought about. She just nodded and turned back to her computer.

"Now you will go to an asembley during your P.E today." Then the bell rang.

"You may go" Psht. Well atleast I didn't have to stand my p.e teacher for an hour. And I also had that class with Will. He is like my gay best friend. He is awesome.