I always hate relationship, I find them annoying and a waste of time, there is no point of pleasuring one person by just being next to them or just by texting and calling each other everyday, to me it was such a nuisance and a waste of energy, yet, I envied those relationship that I have read on book or the one that I have watched on the TV for so many time, I desired and yearned for those kind of relationship, maybe it was just me who overeacted to this, maybe it has always been me who kept shutting the gate in my heart, all my life I have watched my friends and family getting into a relationship and it always does not end well, their heart are battered and bruised while mind are still intact, I have spent all my life focusing on putting my education and career first because I thought this way I wounld not get hurt by anyone, but I guess I was wrong, I opened my heart to late and was not prepared for what have to come, while everyone heart was blooming with flowers mine was painted in blood, I should have known the risk that I have took all my life.
