Lost in Love

Mr. Nice Guy

ASHLYNNS P.O.V

After leaving Chicago Med we made our way to the closest restaurant and I stupidly blurted out that I have no money. He chuckled and told me its on him. "What's your name?" I asked dumb founded. You said it was severide before but I don't want to call you by your last name." He laughed and then smiled at me. "Kelly" he said ever so sweetly. We ate and then talked for what seemed like forever. I finally told him why I called home hell. Then we made our way back to the firehouse. I hobbled inside with Kelly close behind.  I plopped down on the couch and he sat down at the opposite end. I was really surprised he didn't sit next to me. But I was still pretty fragile and he seemed to really care.

"Hey, Can I have a blanket?" I asked quietly as I tried to get comfortable on the couch. I was hurting the pain meds they gave me at the hospital were wearing off and I was clearly uncomfortable. By now I felt the shiver go up my spine and a tear fell down my cheek. I didn't want him to see me cry and I didn't want to seem weak. But honestly it was finally time for me to let my emotions go. I can't hold it in any longer. They are hurting me too much. "sure thing Ash." He said with a smile. " I hope you don't mind if I call you Ash" he said finally locking eyes.. He handed me the blanket and sat down next to me. He pulled me close and carefully placed my legs in his lap. "It's okay not to be okay" he whispered in my ear. "I hope this is okay" he muttered. It was.. It was really okay. I finally felt safe. 

KELLYS P.O.V

Ash was just so damn cute.. I honestly just wanted to hold her in my arms and never let go. She had fallen asleep a little while ago and I left her to rest. I needed to get some work done so I headed right down the hall to my office. I let my thoughts get the best of me and ended up doing some research into Ashlynns life. Her mom and dad are both drug addicts. Her dad is a dealer. They had cps called on them several times for child abuse and she has a little brother named Austin that's 9 years old.. I put my computer away and headed back to where Ash was. She was awake and clearly sad. "What's wrong" I said rushing over to her. "i just realized I have nowhere to live. Where the hell am I gonna live?" "with me!" I blurted out . 

She smiled " You don't have to do that" I smiled back and replied, " And Ash I know about your life, I did some research when you were asleep. I needed to know. I hope you don't mind. But Matt will be heading down to New York in the morning to get Austin. We already notified the police and it won't be an issue. " "omg really?!? Thank you so much!!!" She exclaimed as she attempted to leap into my arms almost toppling us over. It was a better outcome than I had expected. She was excited and she would also have the one thing that meant the most to her back in her life. Even If that meant I have to come second. Because I know that I could never replace Austin in her life.  I wrapped my arms around her torso and pulled her to the couch. We cuddled close and watched a movie for the last bit of my shift and then we would head home. I could feel her drifting off to sleep and I knew that I had finally found my happy place.

ASHS P.O.V

I woke up on the couch next to Kelly. He was just so damn cute. He had a cheeky little grin but was fast asleep. I had realized I was asleep on his chest and sat up. I pulled out my phone and checked the time. "Kelly wake up!" i yelled and he jumped. "Your shift has been over for 2 hours now" i laughed. " I didn't mean to scare you" He got up and gathered our things and ran them to the truck. He then came back for me and scooped me up in his arms and placed me in the truck. On the car ride home I thought to myself for a while. I can't fall for him.. I just met him.. I can't be.. I thought myself back to sleep. until thud! "What the hell was that?!" I laughed seeing Kelly on his ass on the ground. "Are you okay?" He just laughed and said "we're home" It was the cutest thing I had ever seen. The redness of his cheeks from embarrassment put a smile on my face. He was something special. I guess I really am falling for him.

KELLYS P.O.V

I fell on my ass. How the hell could I fall on my ass. It was so stupid. I looked at her as I got up and my face reddened as she laughed. "we're home" I said non chalantly like nothing happened. We made our way up the stairs and too the front door. I unlocked it and went to push it open and ran into it instead. "What is with you today clumsy? She giggled" I groaned, "yeah that felt great" I saw her smile fade to a frown and she shied away from me. Did I scare her? "Are you okay?" I whispered...

ASHLYNNS P.O.V

I was scared and I wasn't sure why because up until now I had felt safe with him. I knew that he wouldn't hurt me and I knew that I was safe. But i was scared and I pushed my way through the door and found the nearest room and locked myself in it. I heard the foots steps after me and I knew it was Kelly but I couldn't find the words or the courage to unlock that door. I couldn't explain to him how I felt but I knew that I had messed things up . " I'm sorry." he repeated over and over again. I sobbed as I heard the sadness in his voice knowing that I had already managed to hurt him. Hurting people is what I do best, I felt my emotions running wild over something that should have been so minor. 

I  must have fallen asleep on the floor. I woke to  light knock on the door.. "I know, I messed up and I'm sorry" he said so sadly "but you need to eat.. Ash please.." I opened the door and he stood there in his joggers and tight shirt. How can I stay upset with that. I opened the door and took the tray of food. I walked over to the table and sat it down. I made my way back over to him and pulled him close. I could feel him relax and wrap his arms around me. " I'm sorry.." He said ever so softly. "No I'm sorry. How I acted was ridiculous.." I replied back to him.  

I pulled away and sat down to eat. As soon as I sat down there was a knock at the door. He looked at me confused as i got up and hobbled to the door. "Hey I can get that you know?" He whisper yelled at me. "It's my house now too!" I yelled back as I opened the door. I cracked the door open and there he stood. My little brother. I had been waiting for this day and it was all I could hope for. I embraced him in my arms and pulled him into the house. I introduced him to Kelly and we watched movies for the rest of the day. 

KELLYS P.O.V

She finally opened the door and we talked it out. As we sat down to have breakfast there was a knock at the door. It was her brother. That was the first time I had truly seen her light up . I saw the glimmer of hope appear in her cheeks and it ignited a spark in me. "Lets watch movies" I yelled like a little kid and scooped her up into my arms. We ran to the couch and plopped down. As the day faded away we headed to bed...

It's been a week now and I absolutely love having Ash and Austin here with me. But i think I finally figured it all out. I'm in love with her. I know it has only been a week but I love her. I love her smile and her laugh and the way she loves her brother. But I guess the real question is.. Does she love me?

"Hey, can I talk to you?" I said as we watched Austin ride his skateboard around the park. "What's up?" she said so calmly. "I-I-I think uhm.. well" i stuttered. "go ahead, you can tell me anything." she whispered. "ITHINKILOVEYOU" i finally managed to blurt out. She stared at me in awe. 

ASHLYNNS P.O.V

I love him.. I do but how do I say how I feel because i'm genuinely confused. I am also a little scared of loving. I am scared that I will lose myself and who I've become. But the truth is. I do love him.