𝐋𝐞𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮t 𝐝𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐬 𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐨𝐨 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝..
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That next day when I woke up I laid in bed and looked up at the ceiling, not sure why i always look at the ceiling, I just do for no reason, even when there's better things to do. All of a sudden I didn't feel too well, like at of my insides we're getting crushed.
"Ddot, ddot, DDOT!" I whisper yelled
"What, what happened??"
"I don't feel good and it's hot and cold at the same time."
"....Nigga what- how does that even make sense- and how tf are you sweating, I literally dropped the air down to 69."
"Idk."
"Lemme get a thermometer thingy cuz you might be sick and get from under the cover too because that might help." He said getting up and going to the bathroom to get the thermometer.
But it was only a matter of time before it got worse. He came back with the thermometer and checked my temp and of course I had a fever.
"Wth- I think your sick, because this isn't normal your temperature is 200, you need to go to the doctor now."
"NO! I can't.." I said now shaking.
"Nigga your literally shaking you need to go."
"No I can't-" I said before I was cut off by my sudden urge to throw up.
I quickly ran to the bathroom and it felt like I was throwing up all my insides. Ddot came in not too far behind and held my hair back.
"Nigga wtf did you eat !?"
"T-The only thing I ate last was ya dick nigga-." I said going back to throwing up even more.
"I think I know what's wrong tho.." I said
"What?"
"I've been sober for too long, if go too long without being intoxicated I don't feel good."
"Well I don't think I have any of the pills you need-"
"You do." I said cutting him off
"Huh..?"
"You have everything I need....I have some drugs in here, that I knew I would need while staying over.. so I brought some along with me."
"Notti wtf man this isn't right, your therapist needs to help you with ts."
"He is, he told me he is.. but for now just hurry up and give me some random narcotic."
"Omg- ok where tf did you put it?" He asked
"In the first cabinet.."
As soon as he opened it a whole bunch of drugs came falling out at once, I forgot to tell him to be careful because I filled it up all the way.
He looked in shock as he saw all the drugs on his floor, then he looked at me with disappointment in his eyes.
"What the actual fuck.... YOU FILLED MY ENTIRE CABINET AND WITH DRUGS!?" He said balling up his fists
If you're wondering how the hell did he not see this earlier it's because he usually never uses this specific bathroom that much he lets me use it instead.
"Look I'm sorry I-.."
"Save the apology for later, just tell me wtf you need...I don't have time for this bs tonight.." Ddot said even more pissed off.
"But do Tell me why you do these dumb things and you know you're not supposed to do it."
"You know I'm 𝐓𝐨𝐨 𝐀𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝.. and you know it's hard for me to leave them alone."
"You can leave them alone, you just don't try hard enough."
"I-..."
"My point exactly, you never try hard, even when I ask you too, all we want is for you to be ok, but I guess that too much to ask for" ddot said as he walked away to his room
Why is it always my fault, I'm always hurting the people I love most, it's like there's a problem with everything I do, and they know I can't help it. And they swear therapy will help, but I know very well that it won't do anything for me. When I try to kms they always try to stop me, why won't they just let me do it, even if I didn't kms they'd still be hurting just as bad if I did. And it makes me wonder sometimes... why do they continue to suffer from my actions.. if I die.. they won't have anything to worry about, and every one will live a happy life. And I know it will hurt spending an eternity in hell, but..at least everyone else will be fine..
I'm sick of sitting here every day watching everyone Ik hurt all the time, and wasting their time and money thinking therapy will help. And it pisses me off.. I can never understand why they do it...
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𝟓𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫
𝘿𝙙𝙤𝙩 𝙥𝙤𝙫
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Ngl Notti just killed me with ts, it's like he never learns, and he doesn't realize how much we actually care about him.. but it's time to face the facts.. that there's nothing we can do with him.. Idk what I'm gonna do with him atp.
But enough of that, all that we can do is try to move forward. Also I've been waiting for him for a little while he said he was going to get some water downstairs but Ik it doesn't take that long.
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𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐦𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭
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Notti walked down stairs, and went into the kitchen. He found a pen and some paper, like normal.. but this time he was serious he knows that ddot doesn't know what's going on, so why not surprise him when he comes down.
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Dear Darrien Jimenez
Ik you've seen notes like this time and time again, and Ik you're tired of me doing this, and I'm tired too. Im tired of seeing you suffer all the time. Ever since I came over here all I did was cause trouble and hurt you..
And for that, Im sorry and I mean it, I can no longer watch you and everybody else go through this. Im doing this while you're not here just so you can't stop me, because I know what needs to be done.. and that is.. killing myself.
When you see this, just know that I love you and everybody else with all my heart.. but, I'm afraid it's time for me to go.
Remember, I'm doing all of this because I love you.
P.S. Notti
𝐅𝟎𝐫𝐠𝟑𝐭 𝐌𝟑 𝐧𝟎+
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As Darrien walked downstairs, he couldn't help but get this feeling that something was wrong.. and turns out.. he was correct. He walked done here just to see a half lifeless notti laying on the floor. He immediately called for an ambulance as he was scared for his friend.
He also found the note and read it, but the one thing that stood out the most was this familiar term..
𝐅𝟎𝐫𝐠𝟑𝐭 𝐌𝟑 𝐧𝟎+
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Sorry I've been inactive yall but I'm back
And I've decided why not edit one of my favorite books, I'm also working on The Prince of Harlem and Insecure currently so those updates should be coming soon!
Also I'm sorry it's so short I wanted to quickly update something for you guys.😭
Hope y'all enjoyed
Ignore any mistakes
And I'll see yall soon
Byeee😘😘😘
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Overdose
FanfictionWhen Ethan ( a drug addict) attempts to Overdose on many occasions, but each time his friend was there to save him. • • Based on the Juice Wrld song Overdose.
