trauma

is this our last path?

*jungkook rushed toward taehyung taking him in his embrace, placing his head on his chest, crying his heart out*
jungkook:taehyung why, why did you do that, WHY
*jungkook left hand was holding his head, while the other stopped on his neck, that's when he felt taehyung wasn't breathing and his heart beat wasn't there either, jungkook just shouted with all his lungs*
jungkook:NOO, AHHH, TAEHYUNG, NOO, DON'T LEAVE ME, NOO, WHY, NOOO, NOOO, NOOOOOOO TAEHYUNG
*jungkook was holding taehyung body, he was lifeless, cold, jungkook was shouting, crying, he then got up, taking taehyung in bridal style, and taking him to the hospital, was that their last time together? *
*at the hospital*
jungkook:SOMEONE HELP ME, DOCTOR
*people in the hospital were watching him, but he didn't cared, suddenly the doctor came almost running toward them*
doctor:what happened?
jungkook:he-he cutted his-his n-neck, and he's not breathing and his heart...his heart doesn't-
doctor:nurses, hurry up
jungkook:can I enter the room
doctor:you can, but after we checked him, we don't even know if he will live or not
jungkook:save him
doctor:we will do our possible
*after the doctor left, jungkook fell on his knees, and started crying again, he thought that this was the last time he would have seen taehyung, but he still didn't know why taehyung did that, he still didn't know taehyung did that cause of the words he told him, he still didn't remembered about last night, he was anaware about what taehyung was thinking every time, and he still didn't know about taehyung antidepressants, but if he didn't bully him, if he didn't told him those words, if he didn't raised his hands on him, if he just protected him like he said, then...*
*after a while*
jungkook:it's all my fault, IT'S ALL MY FUCKING FAULT, and if he die, if I wouldn't see him again, if everything will end, no no no, this can't be possible, I have to see him, I want to see him
*he then stood up, ready to go toward taehyung room, but just then, the doctor came toward him*
jungkook:is he ok?
doctor:he...