trauma

I'm sorry

jungkook:taehyung
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:tonight I will hangout with my friends
taehyung:why are you telling me this?
jungkook:just don't stay awake till late ok?
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:I want you to call me if you feel alone, sad or something, ok?
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:just mmh?
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:ok, go and rest, I will do the dishes
*taehyung didn't utter a word and went in his bedroom, as he entered there he just sat on the bed and covered himself in the blankets, only his face was peeking out, suddenly he heard a knock on the door*
jungkook:can I?
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:*entering the bedroom, and suddenly getting worried*taehyung are you ok?, you have cold?
taehyung:no
jungkook:*looks at taehyung trembling lips*you just don't know how to lie, right?
taehyung:huh
jungkook:your lips are trembling from the cold
taehyung:they're not
jungkook:I will tell my friends I will not go if you're not ok
taehyung:there's no need
jungkook:are you sure?
taehyung:you can go
jungkook:stay warm, don't go anywhere, eat something, drink something warm, and take the medicine
taehyung:I don't have fever
jungkook:*touching his forehead*you're burning, that's it, I'm staying home
taehyung:I said there's no need, you can go
jungkook:then I will go, OK, ok, I'm going, see, stay warm, bye
taehyung:bye
*with that jungkook left the room, and taehyung just sighed*
taehyung:is he really changed?
*taehyung mind suddenly drifted into those words, they started echoing in his mind, his eyes started getting teary, he started thinking that he was really a burden for jungkook, and that jungkook was just pitying him, he didn't realized he was crying, until he felt something wet in his hands, he looked at them, and then he wiped his tears, he thought to sleep for sometime, at least till jungkook was home*
*it was midnight, still, jungkook wasn't home yet, that's when taehyung heard the door opening, he was half asleep, but he got up from the bed and went to jungkook, just to find him drunk*
taehyung:are you drunk?
jungkook:me*hiccups*no
taehyung:no me, come on go and rest
*taehyung was about to take him by his arm to help him go to his bedroom, but jungkook pushed him harshly making taehyung fall, as he hitted his head on the floor, taehyung eyes started getting teary*
jungkook:GO AWAY
taehyung:j-jun
jungkook:WHAT DO YOU WANT
taehyung:I-I
*jungkook bent down and grabbed taehyung by the collar of his shirt making him stood up*
jungkook:DON'T YOU DARE TELLING ME WHAT I HAVE TO DO
taehyung:I jungkook I-
*suddenly taehyung felt his cheek burning, jungkook slapped him, that was a thing that he didn't have to do, since he brought back a trauma of taehyung*
jumgkook:YOU'RE FUCKING ANNOYING, YOU'RE JUST A BURDEN, I DON'T WANT YOU, WHY DON'T YOU JUST DIE, LEAVE, I HATE YOU
*jungkook left taehyung shirt and pushed him again on the floor*
jungkook:JUST FUCKING DIE
*after jungkook left, taehyung mind again filled with those words, he thinked the time for him to end everything was there again, jungkook was right, he should die, he's a burden and he was annoying, that was what taehyung was thinking*
taehyung:you want me to die, don't worry, I will...right infront of you
*taehyung left and went to his bedroom*
*the next day*
*with jungkook*
jungkook:*tapping his bed, then turning around to find no one*huh, taehyung, where is he
*then he heard sounds coming from the kitchen, so he stood up, but then he felt a sharp pain in his head, he shrugged it off and went out of his bedroom, he knew he drinked last night so he thought that it was because of the alcohol he drinked, but he doesn't remember what he did and said to taehyung last night, he was going to regret it soon, just he didn't know*
*in the kitchen*
jungkook:what are you doing?
taehyung:oh you're awake
jungkook:mmh
taehyung:nothing, just drinking water
*taehyung was holding something behind his back, and jungkook didn't noticed yet, he was holding...*
jungkook:taehyung
taehyung:mmh
jungkook:*noticed that taehyung hands were hidden behind his back*what are you hiding?
taehyung:me? nothing
jungkook:taehyung, what do you have behind your back?
taehyung:oh*showing him the knife*this
jungkook:why do you have a knife?
taehyung:why, don't you want me to die
jungkook:me?
taehyung:to leave
jungkook:taehyung put it down
taehyung:aren't I annoying?
jungkook:no you're not, what are you saying
taehyung:I'm a burden
jungkook:no you're not, taehyung-
taehyung:you don't want me
jungkook:huh
taehyung:you hate me
jungkook:taehyung I don't-
taehyung:aren't you happy that I will end everything?
jungkook:taehyung I said put it down
taehyung:you will not stop me this time
jungkook:taehyung put it down
taehyung:it will go down itself, when my hand wouldn't be able to hold it anymore
*taehyung held the knife right infront of his neck, placing it on his skin*
taehyung:jungkook, I will end everything, aren't you happy*smile*
*a tear escaped his eye*
jungkook:TAEHYUNG PUT THAT FUCKING KNIFE DOWN

*blood, just blood, taehyung falling senselessly on the floor, and the sound of the knife hitting the ground, that was all jungkook could see and hear, he frooze in his spot, the world just stopped for a moment, it was like a nightmare for him, but it was real*