My home (NoMin)

8

This chapter will be a roller coaster of emotions and of course I have to give a warning.
Triggering content ahead. Read at your own risk.

When Jaemin gets back to his place he's already sitting on the couch wrapped in a blanket. Jaemin thinks he's impossibly cute. He stands, now wearing the same hoodie and a pair of shorts, opting for comfort.
He shakily takes Jaemin's hand and pulls him down the hallway, when they stop at a door and Jeno hesitates, he's pulled into Jaemin's arms for the warmest hug.
Nothing is said, he's just offering silent support.

"I want to show you me. The me that no one gets to see. The me that's been locked away for five years." He puts his free hand on the handle, shakier than ever.
"Jen, no pressure. If this is too hard for you or you don't want me to see you yet, I can wait." Just as the door starts to open Jaemin is feeling the nerves now. It seems like whatever this is, is a big deal.
When he switches on the light and pulls him in he's floored. Not because it's some weird elaborate thing. It's nothing scary or intimidating. It's just pretty.
He looks at Jeno who looks absolutely terrified and smiles softly.

"Jen, this is nice, really pretty as a matter of fact but forgive me, I don't understand why you would hide this?" Jeno frowns and looks down.
"You don't think I should be ashamed?" Now it's Jaemin's turn to frown.
The room is obviously his bedroom. It's decorated with pretty lights along the ceiling, a flowery pink comforter, the walls are white but the accents he has in here make it perfect.
"It's so feminine, I should be more manly, don't you think?" Jaemin shakes his head and carefully takes him into his arms. He's jumpy at first but Jaemin is gentle.
"I guess i just don't understand. I get that you are hiding your softer side but I don't understand why. I mean if you want my opinion? I say get rid of your black curtains and black and white pictures on the walls in the rest of the house and be you because you are beautiful. And you are a good decorator." Jeno giggles and nods onto his shoulder.

"But this isn't everything. It's about what I sometimes wear, behind closed doors that is, it's what I'm wearing under my shorts." He feels Jaemin freeze up and back away from him and starts to cry, now he's done it. He starts to cower back and crosses his arms over his chest as he waits for his inevitably bad reaction.
"Fuck Jeno you can't do this to me." Jaemin sighs as he sees him looking scared out of his mind and frowns.
"I'm sorry, it's just that, that is incredibly hot and I just don't think that now is the time for my mind to go where it went. It's not your fault, you didn't do anything wrong. My brain went somewhere else at the moment." He's trying hard to explain his reaction so that he doesn't sound like a horny teenager but he's failing miserably and can't even look Jeno in the eyes.
"Wait, you think it's?" He questions but can't say the actual word.
"Sexy as fuck? Yeah. Look, I'm sorry I was out of line. I feel horrible that here you are opening up to me like I've wanted for so long and I'm picturing, well, you know. I'm so so sorry. I hate that I'm so insensitive." Jeno pouts and kisses his lips softly.
"If this is as insensitive as you get then you are perfect." Jaemin furrows his brow.
"Why do I get the feeling there is more?" He asks carefully.

Jeno nods and drags him to the couch. He has him sit then he sits and cuddles into him and covers them with the blanket. Jaemin can still feel him shaking and honestly, he's scared for Jeno now.
"I know to some it doesn't seem like a big deal. Why go through all the effort to hide that? I've had people tell me that I was being stupid, none of that is a big deal. I get it, to some it isn't, it's actually mild in the grand scheme of things." He takes a deep breath and holds Jaemin's waist tighter.

" I was in a relationship with this guy. He knew me, I had dressed slightly more feminine, colorful, soft. He had seen my apartment before and knew I love flowers and colorful things. We were together a year. He decided to move in with me, he was between places, so it worked.
He was there only a week before he started acting different. Mumbling about how ugly something was before he'd rip it or break it. I would get mad and tell him to stop but it only took a couple more weeks before his true colors to really show." He grabs a tissue and sits up to look at Jaemin who is already getting emotional.