the Way You See // dnf

20:hate and die

(Let's do dreams pov now)

TW:mentions of suicide attempt/sh mentions and ED/blood/mentions of smoking/death?????

Dream pov:
I rushed out of the bathroom and ran outside and didn't see george I went to the house as fast as I could my vision blurry from crying I was sorry for george I shouldn't have gotten drunk....

Why was I drunk why did I follow her I am just stupid

I am sorry for george.....

I got to the house as quick as I could I open the door since I had a key I looked it every door then I saw

George. . .

I rushed to him he was with blood and a bottle of pills I called 911

I called them and they came in early and took him I was crying more and more

All my fault

Just my fault

Why me

Why him....

I was waiting at the waiting room and saw the doctor walk out of Georges room "so how is he?.... " I ask

"He has a risk of dying...." The doctor says

my heart

Dropped.....

Why did I do that

It was my fault

I started to cry I couldn't take it anymore "also we found he is low on most of stuff he needs to survive can we ask you some questions?" The doctor's asked

"Yeah of course" I say "has he been eating properly?" My heart sank i haven't seen eating in a whole while..... This couldn't be does he have a.... Eating disorder.....

"I haven't seen him eat..... In a whole while..."
I say my heart started pounding "ok has he have been smoking?"

Then I remember the day it smelt like cigarettes and I thought it was the neighbors but now I know who.....

"Yes..... I think so..." I say feeling bad for george..... "Ok has he have been dealing with mental illness?"the doctors say my heart breaks I know he had been dealing with it for a long time....

"Yes..." I say being quite after that the doctors nods "ok thanks I will be back with you if...... He wakes up...  My heart sank again I nod and went back to my seat and started to cry why did I do that

It was forced but I let me drunk self take the best of me.....

I was a bitch for doing that....... All my thoughts came to a end when I fell asleep I then woke up to karl waking me up.....

"Yeah?" I asked "what happened tell me" karl says his eyes very serious "I was drunk and my ex forced me to kiss her..." I say as I start to tear up "hey hey it is ok I know she forced you but why did you go with her?" Karl asks

I start to tear up more "I don't know I was such a dumb bitch" I say crying karl just rubbing my back we hugged it out and we didn't talk until we see the doctor

"We have some news"

The doctors say my face still red but a slight smile on my face hopping it was good news

Hopefully he was alive

I want him....

I need him.....

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YAY cliff hanger anyways I will be making a new book I am not sure when but I will soon also thx for everything I love you all

Remember to eat and drink water and get some rest

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