I am honestly about to fucking end it all ☹️
I can't keep a single friend without losing them to suicide, a joke, etc etc
I always fucking ruin every relationship/friendship I'm in somehow someway
every real friend I have doesn't even talk to me anymore
I lost a fucking freind/soon to be gf to a fucking joke in our gc
I am so fed up with it all
Im only 18 days clean (from sh)
I don't wanna go to school
School will just destroy my mental health
I'm just probably gonna give up on everything atp
One knife
One rope
One jump
One building
One car
One fucking step out this door
I'm seriously about to just say 'fuck it all' and run away. I'm not joking
What the fuck did I do wrong to people that made them hate me? All I've done is be myself and treat them kindly
And then I start gaining feelings for someone I met TODAY. and then I get in a little argument with them
idfk anymore. Any ideas on what the actually fuck I can do to 'escape reality'?
