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Bella POV

It's been months since the last time I saw him my life hasn't been the same I've been depressed if you could call it that. The only person that can really make me feel like me is Jacob but it seems that he has abandoned me as well. I don't cry I can't all I feel is the hole inside of me growing bigger and bigger almost to the point of ripping me in half. Maybe that would be a good this since I'm losing everyone and everything I care about.

My own father has even stopped talking to me except for the occasional 'hey' or 'goodnight Bells' not that I try either but life it self just isn't worth it. My grades are slipping slightly I went from an A+ average to a B- average. I sighed and glanced at the clock on my night stand 2 in the morning great another sleepless night staying up and thinking about Ed-him.

I stood up slowly and paced the room it's not like I can do anything else I don't have any friends since I shut them all out if my life. I wish I would have kept Angela though she still tries to talk to me.

I jumped when a figure appeared at my closed window, and for a millisecond I hoped it was Edward. I sighed when I saw the figure was only Jacob. I scrambled to the window and throw it open allowing Jacob in my bedroom. I remembered the last time he did this. He wanted so badly for me to figure out what he is and now that I did he didn't come around as much only when he had the chance.

"Hey!" He whispered pulling me into a hug, I felt whole again just at the sound of his voice. I felt as if Edward never left and Jacob is still human just like good times I guess,

"Shouldn't you be on patrol?" I asked placing a hands on my hips and scowling at him. He chuckled and sat on the edge of my bed.

"Well shouldn't you be in bed?" He teased, I smiled slightly. He is the only person that can get a true and genuine smile out if me.

"To shay." I giggled sitting on the opposite side of him.

"Are you thinking about him?" He growled slightly. I didn't answer I just sat on the bed staring at the black box hidden in my closet.

Most people wouldn't have been able to see it but when James bit me last year me eyes sight and strength improved making me slightly stronger then any human but not as strong as a vampire the same goes for my sight. I don't think the Cullen's or the pack know about this I didn't even realize it until a month after Edward left. The best part is that I'm faster much faster almost inhumanly fast! I realized Jacob was still waiting for my answer.

"Yes." I whispered.

"Bella they aren't coming back!" I nodded and looked up at him.

"But I still miss them I'm allowed to miss them." He sighed and softened his stare.

"I suppose."

"Thank you, now go before Sam comes and gets you!" He snorted but stood up engulfing me into a hug.

"I love you Bells. You know that don't you?" I nodded in his chest I know the love he felt for me but I didn't love him that was I loved him more like a little or er tall brother.

"I know and I love you too Jake." He kissed the top of my head and slipped out the window. I ran over and watched him phase and take off into the woods.

I sighed and walked back to my bed feeling better. I felt like I was half full but not completely full. I put my head on the pillow and allowed my sleep to take me over.

I was standing in the middle of the forest not just and part of the forest but his meadow where the wolves killed Victoria and Laurent. I was in the center looking into a pair of red eyes, I knew who's eyes I was looking at they were. Aros eyes from the Voturi. He smiled at me and held out his hand stepping closer.